sweet 16(:

ok. so, today was Mandys sweet sixteen party. it was ok. i mean, for basically the whole time i was being ignored and stared at by everyone, and that made me sad but whatever. so i was in the hallway, by myself and ricky comes and starts talking about how he's made a psychological profile for me, but wouldn't tell me what's in it. he looked nice. so then this guy comes and he's talking to Ricky and he goes "who's your friend?" me being the friend, obviously. and i go "oh, i'm Mandys sister." and he goes "how old are you?" and i go "thirteen" and he goes "damn, too young" then he was going to ask me if i can pee or not, but he didn't. his name was Oliver. Ricky was all "this is my handsome friend oliver" which made me laugh because he wasn't cute at all. anyways! so i'm sitting in a chair, still by myself, and Ivan (adorably, by the way. but y'all know that) comes up to me and goes "Maegan do you want to dance?" it was bachata. so i go "sure*smiles*" and he goes "i did promise you" and so we're dancing right and he's all "so how have you been maegan?" you know, simple questions. and "are you going to hubbard?" and "how's dance going?" so then we were talking about dance and he said that i was really good because mandy showed him a video from one of my competitions, and he also suggested that we recruit more guys. so then he goes "sorry i haven't been texting you, i've been busy and i have an iPod, not a phone so i need wifi for it." then i go "oh, it's ok, no big deal" and he goes "yeah i was thinking, and i don't want you to think that i don't want to text you, you're cool" and so that was all good. oh, and when he came he was all "hi maegan!" and gave me a hug. oh, and so we're dancing bachata and he goes "do you know how to spin?" and i go "yeah" and he goes "cool, i'm going to spin you" so then he told me when he was going to and then one time when he spun me he was all "spin time!" which i thought was cute. he was just cute all together. and then ricky was talking about how i wanted to dance with Ivan (before i actually did) and he goes "i'll fucking kill you if you touch my man." and he was laughing. sometimes i question if he's joking or not... so then Ivan and i were dancing and ricky comes up and goes "now i have to kill you, you touched my man" and ivan was all "no!" and he looked at me and goes "i got you, it's ok" ricky was pretty funny today, actually. i sorta like when we hang out. even though it's been like twice, it's been fun, i guess. he's cool. anyways! throughout the whole party i was taking notes (which are sorta emo depressing because you know i was alone the whole time) but here they are: the stuff in parentheses are not part of the notes.

so, i thought mandys sweet sixteen was going to be one of the most fun nights ever. instead i was humiliated, laughed at, and in a bathroom crying. (everyone was talking about how i wanted to dance with ivan and people were laughing. and this one girl i think her name was selena, said my boobs were big, which didn't help)

speech #1: (he had explained how mandy was smart because she read edgar allen poe at christmas) i do the same fucking thing (i just read edgar allen poe) and nobody acknowledges me for shit.

Papa's speech: and i'm going to be shit, right? exactly.

Ricky's speech: (not being mean, i swear. i apologize if i hurt your feelings, Ricky) lol he looked so awkward. all the other guys were all "mandy, whoever wants to be your boyfriend is going to have to go through us" and then Ricky went up there all O____O

Overall: i get it, her friends are here, she doesn't want to be around her little sister. it's just plain embarrassing.

Sidenotes:

I see them staring at me,

Fucking amazing.

thanks for loving me. (sarcasm...)

after i talked to ricky: phycological profile?

couples. couples everywhere.

Danced with ivan<3

Danced with mandy

things are getting better....

hey mandy, thanks for ignoring me all night.

slow dancing. forever alone.

do you even love me?
kdone.

i guess, dancing with Ivan made it all better, because i really wanted to. and he promised and he stuck to his promise, which is always good. other than that, it was fun. you know, when i wasn't in the bathroom crying. and y'all know why i was so i don't want to get random texts or something asking, because it is clearly stated. love all three of you who actually read my blog. love you all a lot:D stay magical(:

mmkkkaaayyy i realize this sounds selfish, and i deeply apoligize for this. stay magical(: