mario bros frustration

ok so theres this thing called mario bros frustration and i had to put my favorite line.

"you know mario you are brave. if i was a plumber in new york and i found myself in an kingdom always trying to save this dumb bitch who always manages to get herself kidnapped i.. i just couldnt do that i dont have the patience for this."
    love it.

ugh, i hate being sick.

so yesterday i wasn't feeling so good so my mom took me to the doctor. god that place is weird. I've been going there since i was a baby so they kind of got used to me and ill be walking down the hall and some random lady will be all "Maegan!!. which is kind of what happened. cuz we were leaving and this black lady (i don't even know her name was all "Maegan! god your growing up. i like your hair like that. it looks pretty." and I'm just like "thank you" but what i was really thinking was "lady, i don't even know your name all i know is last time i was here you gave me three shots" Mandy has a ROTC competition on Saturday. therefore shes not going to papas house on Friday therefore neither am i. daurnas so cute cuz i was all "i look bad today." and hes all "why because your hair has curls?" and I'm like "yes!" and hes all "so?! it looks delicious" nice. oh! so remember that dream i had about victor? yeah, well because dreams are connected to reality i decided to wear my pretty perfume (from pink) and not only did i see him again but i bumped into him on my way to math!! (I'm sorry maria i didn't tell you because when we got back we had to do a lot of work) ok so i was walking to math all by myself because Elly wasn't there and i was looking down and walking and all i knew was a class was coming and so I'm walking with my head down and i bump into someone and i look up and I'm all "I'm so sorry" then my brain actually realized who it was and all quiet like really quiet I'm like "ohhh" and hes all "no no I'm sorry" and then hes walking away and hes all "see you round" *victory dance* THE CHANCES ARE GETTING HIGHER PEOPLE!!!! XD. I'm telling you it might just happen eventually. i hope he gets transferred to gifted and then JP is all "oh ill show him everything he can just sit where Chris sits" cuz i sit next to Chris. see what i did there? JP always wants to "help" people and she knows i like him and last week she said she was my new best friend. so best friends do that for each other right? but he probably wont get transferred to gifted because nothing ever works out the way you want it to. man, i cant text anyone. well, i can probably text Mandy shes really doesn't care. i have no idea what I'm going to do. this day is going to go by slowww... also, i was being so rebel and i was texting elly during math. cuz she wasnt there and daniel is all "your not supposd to have your phone out!!!" haha silly

So i had a dream last night…

That i was on this swing thing that was attatched to a tree and i was just swinging and then victor ortiz came with this little girl and is all "can i join you?" and i go "sure" so i get off and let him swing but he goes realllyyy high and he falls off from like realky high up and then i run to him and i just touch where he was injured and he heels… then he starts hopping and goes "im a bunny rabbit!" and i go "Aww" and tickle his tummy. Well, i dont literally tickle him its just liks that small little tiny tickle someone does like directly in the middle of your tummy. You know what i mean right? Anyway, turns out its thanksgiving and theres a whole party thing inside. So i run to elly and im all "holy crap guess what just happened" and she goes "what" thsn victor comes out of nowhere and hugs me from behind and goes "hey elly. Oh, were dating now" and elly freaks out and starts screaming which turns into an alarm waking me up…

Shool was just...amazing

im not sure why exactly. elly and sam left at about 11:40 because they were sick, so you think itd be kind of a bad day. but it wasnt. see in math it goes me, elly, then this quiet eigth grader named allen (whos supposx to be a freshman) and ws had to do a problem out of the book and i was sorta confused and so i was all "allen. What did you get?" and hes all "25" and then ms loy is all "the answer is 25" and i was all "oh look at you, getting answers correct" and he goes "im cool like that". So that was nice. Then because elly and sam left me and maria wouldve been all alone at our posts so lizzie let me go to marias post. Victor ortiz was in ms demmas room because his class goes there for reading so when his class came out me and maria had to hold the doors for them. So hes coming right and he walks through the door and he stops RIGHT IN FRONT OF ME "fix his shoe" turn his head, look at me and smile!!! Love it. Just put a huge smiley face on my day. Im telling you, the percents are rising, there is a higher chance we will go out. Im sure of it.

Oh yeah, i forgot about that

so i forgot that Mandy was going to be calling me every Sunday shes not with me. i think that's pretty cute. so yesterday i went to muvico with Elly to see happy feet two. it was such a good movie i kinda want it on DVD. so apparently there's this new horror movie coming out called women in black. and  the ad for it is a mirror and in "blood" it says what did they see. and i didn't see the little censor thing cuz i looked in the mirror and a face popped up. like, it was in the right hand corner so if i hadn't looked up i never would've seen it.scared the crap out of me, yes it did. so obviously me and Elly didn't want to sit by my mom and Scott so we sat like three rows infront of them. and at first it was just me and Elly in the row but then some guy and his girlfriend I'm guessing came and sat on the opposite end away from us. ok, well its dark in the movies and he was kinda far and he looked just like Seth Meyers. so, like any other seth meyers fan i freaked out. so, we kept scooching down to get closer to him and we were calling out seth but in like a whisper kind of. so when the movie ended we got up and ran like hell and waited outside the theater sitting up against the wall pretending we were texting but we had our cameras ready. and when he came out, it was soooo not seth meyers. oh my gosh the guy didnt even look like him. im telling you lighting makes a huge difference. like, when i straighten my hair i turn my lamp off because it makes me look better. well elly slept over and it was pretty fun. but im kind of hungry now so i think im going to nom on some food.

Thanksgiving

so thanksgiving was fun. remember how i said i weighed 99.2? yeah well i thought for sure id be back to like 101.something. then this morning i weighed myself to be funny and i was 97.8. how did that happen?!?!? crazy. so yesterday consisted of Gracie on the phone, and me and Emily talking to him and each other. because gracies boyfriend (Renee) and we were trying to get him to tell us how he would propose to Gracie. i thought he would put the ring in a pokeball and then put a piece of paper that says i choose you. i thought that would be cute cuz hes kind of a nerd... but that's ok. the turkey yesterday was just amazing. as long with the stuffing. then, emelie slept over my house and we didn't go to sleep until 2:30 because we were watching bon qui qui and miss swan videos and lost track of time. i love bon qui qui "i will cut you." love it. as long with Angela Nicole Johnson. hilarious. i feel very refreshed today and I'm not sure why. i have to go to Leos to get a tan leotard for nutcracker. i also have to retrieve my diamond earrings from dance team because i need those for nutcracker. to much work. well, now my mom is making me and emelie eggs. delicious. I'm not sure why but I've been craving them since like this morning. my dog is staring me down. hes going to kill me in my sleep one day i swear....

Victors hand

Ok lets try this. yeah its not going to work im sorry.

IM FOREVER ALONE I SWEAR

ok, so this guy named victor in our math class. likes Lizzie. i mean really likes Lizzie. like he told Elly that he liked her and she told him how she likes Edin and how shes a bitch so he shouldn't waste his time. he got sooo mad that she liked Edin, he punched a wall. now here's my thing i must be really ugly or just forever alone because if guys are doing that over Lizzie there's obviously something wrong with me. unless guys are doing things like that about me and i just don't know it but i highly highly doubt that. oh here's his hand: ok so i tried to put the picture but its not letting me. so basically its his hand but his knuckles are all red. ill try again from my ipod. just wait. there's a good chance its not going to work but whatever.


 

honestly i dont know what to title this....

so angel is pretty much trying really hard. like on tuesday he text me and hes like "we havent hung out in a while" and im all "i know" and he goes " i keep looking for you but your gone. i miss you" and me feeling really bad goes "do you remember where my post is?" and he goes "at the top of the stairs right?" and i go "yes. meet me there tommorow" and so yeah. then on wednesday he was at my post and we were talking and he was like creeping the little kids out. you know,normal angel stuff. so then hes all "what are you doing for thanksgiving?" and i tell him blablabla and then im all "im wearing this reallyyyy cute straless dress but im going to wear a sweater because drunk people and strapless dresses dont mix real well" so then just now he sent me a text saying"happy thanksgiving! i hope you have a good time with your family and i hope you dont get raped in the strapless dress!!" and then we went on talking and he basically remembered every detail i told him. god, next year is going to be awkward as hell. especially if he stops liking me cuz then hell be all "I flirted so much..." and " i tried so hard..." so elly made a point tat once JP and hailey leave someones going to have to take their place. and shes all "two girls who are extremely pretty" then shes all "you and me. but well be much nicer and we wont be whores." so yeah i think its been established that were going to take their place but well be much nicer.

happy thanksgiving y'all (meant to be said in a southeren accent)

well, happy thanksgiving!!!! so i have very low self esteem. and today i weighed my self and learned i am 99.2 pounds!! but heres the thing, its the day that people eat like everything. and i know that 99.2 isnt that skinny but i used to weigh like more. kinda dont wanna say, for personal reasons. like it wasnt in the 200s but yeah. today should be fun...

Stop Looking at pictures of obama and do work

so Mrs Loy said that to charlie today in math class. like he had a binder with laminated pictures of Obama. pretty weird. so today in math i said "if i see victor today my four day weekend is going to go good" then guess whos adorable little face popped in? yup, joey. then, later on i saw victor in the hallway. so i seemed to notice that all the good moments or the hilarious moments happen in math. strange. so today i think Jessica plaud was trying to be my....friend. because she was all "you never told us why Monday was so good in math" (remember, victor coming in for the class yeah) and i was all "oh because the guy i like came in and he stayed for the whole class" and shes all "well who do you like?" and I'm all "a boy" and shes all "seventh?" and I'm all "yes." and she goes "is he in the main building. duh. "yes" and then Emily cuts in and shes all "well whats the first letter of his name?" and i go "v" and they're all "VICTOR ORTIZ." well, they figured it out. so I'm all "*smiles* yeah...*blushes*" and JP is all "awww i would just die if you guys started dating. you guys would look so cute together" and on the outside I'm all "yeah" but on the inside I'm all "bitch please tell me something i don't know. XD and i know Maria's probably thinking "we need to ask him out. she said shed die..." and then jp's all "you know what I'm going to do for you? I'm going to go up to him and be all you know that really cute girl Maegan...yeah you should ask her out" and I'm thinking this would be great....except he doesn't really....know me. i mean, i guess he knows my name from that incident at the door but i don't think he remembered. yeah, hes checked me out but that's basically it, it doesn't really mean anything. speaking of getting checked out some random dude was like staring me down at the mall then he checked me out. sometimes its hard controlling all this much smexii......

Well hello there

well this blog is very risky because Lizzie is right next to me. being very annoying as usual. yeah, I'm posting this from library. rebel. you know library isn't all that bad if your surrounded by people you actually wanna be by. oh shit teachers coming

To all my fellow 9gagers....

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    look, but don't tell......




p.s. if your confused, you have to put this in the URL

I'm gonna love you through it!!

does anybody else know that song? i believe its by Martina McBride. i hate this song. ok so its talking about how she needs to get rid of the cancer so she can help her kids with their lives right? so then she gets the surgery and they have to take out her whole boob cuz she had breast cancer. then it goes fake smiles and baggy shirts to hide what the cancer took from her. wtf Martina?!?!?! sure you have one boob but you can still be with your kids. hey, its better than being dead!!! i know i know your all "but Maegan, she just wants to feel like a woman" hey! at least your kids don't have to grow up with out a mom!!!! sheesh. so this has nothing to do with the song but Jackie's sister who is like ten drew me a picture (for the record I've only seen her twice and i didn't even talk to her that much)  and in big letters it says MAEGAN IS PRETTY AND AWESOME awh! isnt that cute? I'm pretty:]

Dont you just love it when your day goes great?

*sigh* school was absolutely amazing. it all started after service gym. so were walking out right? and i didn't even notice victor was going into his class but i did something with my hair that was super cute and he checked me out! ahh!!! i loved it. made me smile:] so then in math i was writing notes like a good student and Elly slammed her hand down on my notebook. i look up and who do i see? victor. "can i take my test in here?" yeah victor you sure can take your test in here... so then i start laughing and freaking out and I'm smiling like crazy. well, i didn't realize how bad i was freaking out because Omar was all "Maegan!" and I'm all "yes?" and hes all "do you like him?" and I'm all "shhh...." so then we share a laugh blablabla carry on with math. so then a couple minutes later i hear "Maegan!" and I'm all "what?" cuz i was in the math zone. and omars all "why dont you talk to him?" and I'm all "I'm shy...*blushes*" and hes all "aw. ok" so then victor finishes his test and gets up observes the room for a second, sees me, and checks me out yet again! totally made my day. and both Hailey and JP weren't here and i began to love my table. we had sooo much fun it was ridiculous. like, Chris isn't all that bad hes actually pretty nice and funny. and eryck, well eryck is just nice. guess what i learned today you guys? tomasz likes me!!! wow....isnt that exciting?!?!? you know, there are times when i feel bad for my self. Chris told me. and I'm all "its not one hundred percent written in stone though right?" and hes all "oh no yeah it is one hundred percent" this wouldn't be that bad if i didn't bump into him and he was totally all nice and lovey to me. well, this explains why hes been so nice. thought he was just a gentlemen.

finally, one thats recent.

yay!! this one is about this weekend!! <3
    so this weekend was fun. i guess. on Saturday, let me see what did we do on Saturday.....right! we went to the mall. i got some amazing jeans from wet seal. after the mall, we went to Walgreen's and got movies from redbox. we got gnomeo and Juliet and Arthur. Arthur made me wanna cry just a little bit. we also got chips. Mandy always gets chips. they're like her drugs. after Walgreen's we went to KFC. mmm delicious. honey barbecue wings and ten piece feast for this family. their biscuits are just...amazing. then while watching gnomeo and Juliet, Mandy promised she would not fall asleep. so then were watching the movie and I'm all "I'm going to go get some food" and shes all "ok" i leave for not even a minute and i come back and shes gone. out cold. fell asleep. way to keep your promise. then today was pretty busy. we went to lane techs open house. wow, i kinda wanna go there. but its almost impossible to get into. then we went to the McDonald's by the school but they were like crazy expensive so we left to go to sports authority and look at softballs for Mandy. and there just happened to be a McDonald's across the street. then i had to go to ballet. act rehearsals. ugh i had to be there from 6 to 8. terrible. and i only danced like twice. then we go to home and i had to be a test subject for Mandy's science fair project. then i had to do my homework. which was pretty weird. and now, well now I'm here at my house. freezing my little booty off.

late post #2

so, this ones about Friday.
      so on Friday, maria and i went to go bananas!! it was so much fun until we ALMOST GOT KIDNAPPED. as i said in an earlier post (ill walk with you i believe) kidnapping is my biggest fear. in the world. so this was pretty damn scary. ok, so me and maria are in the jungle gym thing and this little girl who was super cute was all " i know a secret hideout come with me" and so being nice me and maria went. and then we got down and the little girl insisted that maria give her a piggy back ride while maria was on all fours. so maria was all "oh we were going to go on the rollercoaster" thinking that the little girl would not want to go. smart right? wrong. the little girl was all "oh ill just go with you!" so then me and maria put our shoes on and Maria's all "wheres your mom?" and she points at this 20-30 year old guy and is all "that's hector i met him at McDonald's" scary already. so then the little girl( who never told us her name) needed help putting on her shoes and the guy was all "I'm hector by the way" and i go "I'm may" because there is no way I'm giving my name to some random ass guy. and then the guy is all "i don't think shell give it back. the heart she stole from you. she still hasn't given me mine" creepy.  and so i get up and leave.( btw maria i left to go alert Scott and my mother, we came back) and maria and the little girl and hector go on the roller coaster. and i wasn't there so i don't know exactly what happened but maria said he told her she was a gorgeous girl. yeah. so then Scott tells the general manager and that guy started stalking him like crazy. well, turns out the guy was a single father who comes there every other weekend. mmhh sure. but other than that it was pretty fun. there was this worker that looked EXACTLY like Dante. my godbrother. he talked like him he walked like him he acted like him. it was crazy. his name was Eric. we got sooo many tickets and prizes. and Eric was helping us with the prizes. he was sooo funny like he was hilarious and i think we even became somewhat friends. hope to see you again Eric.

Late post #1

so this is actually about Thursday...
     well, school was...interesting. like in math ms Loy was all "did anyone else do the problem like this?" and i raised my hand. i was the only one. and then ms Loy starts obsessing over me like I'm the smartest kid in the world. i like attention but not like that. and then with science. like, i was supposed to present my science fair and i didn't because all the eighth graders hadn't gone yet. but, Mrs flesor assigned us numbers last week so i don't even understand why i didn't go. i kinda wanted to go, just to get it over with you know? well, i guess ill have to present on Tuesday. and I'm not sure if this was on Thursday or not but I'm going to tell it anyways. so i was with Elly at her post and i don't recall what we were talking about but somewhere in the sentence i said "I'm Maegan" and Elly being the sweetheart she is was all "can you open the door?" so i did without thinking about it and who's there when i open the door? victor Ortiz. and right as i open the door I'm all "I'm Maegan" and hes all "well hello there" and me being me was all "hi:] *begins to blush*" yeah. so he knows my name now. sorry about the late post, pops doesn't have a computer.

Woah. Its a sign

So lat night i had the wierdest dream. It was me edin lizzie victor joey gonzalez and elly. See, elly likes joey i like victor and lizzie likes edin. So we were at this play but i was in it. But we went to see the Play before it. And it was like really really cold and lizzie was shivering like crazy and i guess her and edin were dating and edin was all "want me to put my arm around you" and she was all "um no i dont think were there yet" and edin looked somewhat sad. And joey and elly were dating and they werent paying attention to the fact that it was cold or the play, they were just making out. And i was dating victor. And we were doing our thing being all cute and flirting and things like that. So then i think edin went in for a kiss or something and lizzie was all "WHAT ARE YOU DOING?!?!" and he was all "you know what you are like the worst girlfriend in the world. Im done." and got up and walked away. Of course being an idiot even in my dreams was all "edin! Come back!" of course joey and elly didnt notice cuz they were making out and victor was being cute and was all ill stay with you forever. You know, stuff like that. *begins to blush*

Basically what im getting at is i think its like a sign. Like you know how all your dreams are related to reality? Yeah. Shed be a terrible girlfriend. Its just a fact. I dont think hes going to ask her out cuz he hasnt shown any "signs". But if he does, we all know whats going to happen…

experementation. im prettty sure thats spelled wrong

so i keep forget to blog about this so here goes. while at Elly's house i got really bored and we were outside so i decided to do a bit of testing. we stood at a crosswalk whenever cars came and we would see how many let us cross and how many didn't. seven cars let us cross and two did not. they were mean. well, technically eight cars let us cross but i didn't go cuz i swear they were going to try to kidnap me. they were very intimidating.

Tommorow

so tomorrow me and maria are going to go bananas. aka jeepers. come on, y'all know you know that place. so were going tomorrow and its going to be soo much fun. were probably going to ride the roller coaster like 50 times. were going to win so many prizes we'll be bawlin. sorry I've been hanging out with this black chick for the past hour. Mandy says she wants a temporary tattoo so i gotta get her that. so lately I've been noticing that dance has been kinda a let down. like me and my friends made mirliton which is on pointe and i thought that was pretty good for all of us. but noo their little show off asses had to go to the freaking pas De deux! that's like insane that's where people like Liz (the lead for mirliton) go. self confidence level: -12. i didnt think i was a bad dancer but now its like...i dont know. thats the thing i dont even know what to think of my dancing anymore. after every show its always "oh maegan you did so good blablabla" but no one every gives me feedback. thats one of the reasons why it kind of sucks being a dancer because nobody in my family knows about dance. well, that kind of dance anyways. so its like im practicing at home and for all i know i could be doing it wrong. and i wont know til i go back to class. everything was going great until stupid alex and sydney came along. what it toke me ten years to do, it took them two. not even two more like one and a half. i used to be mrs idas favorite. i used to be the person all the people wanted to talk to and hang out with. nooo you gotta be a good dancer for that kind of thing. sure, they still call me when they need someone to fill in a part for a show but still. i dont have the connections with the dancers. just the people that work there. sure, whenever nadias there doing make up for shows she always pulls me aside and does my make up all awesome like so i dont have to look like everyone else. but thats only because me and nadia are like this. *crosses fingers* but them, they talk to everyone like andrea and sonali and daisy and gulianna. me and gulianna used to go to the same school!! dance is a major confidence killer. and if my mom actually cared like she says she does she wouldve looked into the bryant youth professionals in a heartbeat. she still hasnt. because she doesnt think i can. she just doesnt have the heart to tell me. when shes all "oh, your a good dancer" its only because shes a mom and shes obliged to say things like that. imagine telling your kid that they suck at something. not very easy to do. i need serious help

our little competition

so me and Lizzie are having this "competition" but first let me tell you the back story.

STORY TIME!!!!
so one day me and Lizzie were talking and she was all "oh Maegan your so pretty i bet all the guys like you" and I'm like "hellz nah i bet no guy likes me. they probably all like you" you know because she gets everything she doesn't deserve. and shes all "no, they all like you blablabla" long story short, we got into a huge thing and now were having this competition

so basically the competition is too see who "has" more guys. like if more guys like her, i win. but if more guys like me, i win. so right now were tied. but shes just listing random guys. like, angel, ok. Brian, ok. but James?!?! I've never even talked to him!!! shes all "he only says hi to me when your around" maybe that's because we only see him when were together!!! I've never even talked to him. and one time we were at stoners spot and he was back there with some guys doing tricks on his bike and he rode over by us and did some sort of trick in front of us and shes all "notice how he did that right in front of you" dude!!! that's the spot where everyone does tricks!! idiot. oh but i think she might be winning because today at book fair i was looking at some books like a good student when this guy named joey came and hit my arm and i was all "oh hey joey" and hes all "hey you" and then he said something funny and i laughed and of course when you laugh you smile so then he was kinda staring at me all love struck like and then i was all "joey?" and hes all "oh sorry i wandered off" so then i gave him a hug and left to pay for my book. hes in my trap. MWUAHAHA!! but Maegan, what trap? MY CUTENESS TRAP. hellz yea. Ive got a cuteness trap. do you have one? no? well i do.

Slumber Partaaayyyy XD

I'll Walk With You

so today in science we had to present our science fair board. a lot of pretty funny things were said. like when michael went up i asked him if he enjoyed doing his project and hes all "yes very much" its funny cuz he has this really deep voice with like a polish/russian accent i dont know which one. and we had to say something positive and tomas being the wierdo he is was all "i like your voice" wtf?! ok.... so then krystian went and his board was kinda *cough* shitty*cough* and michael was all "how long did it take you to make that board?" it was funny cuz he sounded all confused. and then everytime krystian asked a question nobody could understand him cuz he has like four teeth behind his two front teeth. so brian lee, a eighth grader likes me. just cuz hes asian doesnt mean hes cute. he has no looks at all. but he realllyy likes me. like we had to play human knot in gym and i stuck my hands out and brian grabbed both of them. like first of all the game hasnt even started and your only suppod to grab the hands of the people across you. thank you very much. angel also likes me a lot too. cuz elly left and then likes five minutes later scott called saying to go to ellys house and im like fuck im going to have to walk alone and angels like "oh i walk that way so you can just walk with me" and im all "ok" so were walking and we take the short way but this random ass van pulls up and parks and im all "ohshitohshitohshit kidnap van" now, i have the biggest fear of being kidnapped. so hes all "oh here" and puts me on the other side away from the van. and im all "thanks :]" and hes all "here for extra safety" and puts his arm around me. yeah. so then thats over and he puts his arm down. then im walking streetside and he moves me and hes all "you shouldnt walk close to the street" all gentlemen like. by then ellys walking toward us but i yell for her to just stay at her house cuz we were like there basically and so we keep walking and we get to ellys house and angel and i say bye i give him a hug, blablabla.angel crosses the street and i walk into ellys house. so then im looking out the window and i see angel turn around and start walking back the direction we came. isnt that cute? he doesnt go that way at all! im really starting to feel bad for the poor kid, i mean its never going to happen. but, at least hes trying.

im surrounded by cute people!!

today, i walked into the mobiles and maria was all "hey sexy :]" awh! i love that. and uriel!! i love uriel! hes such a cutie. like he was with his fifth grader friend and they had to go somewhere but uriel stopped to give me a hug and his friend is all "no hugging girls" and uriels like "always hug girls" thought that was cute. and he has this really cool hat and i was all "uriel, can i steal your hat?" and hes all "umm how about tommorow cuz today is kind of cold but i dont care about tommorow" awh. oh! and my dad. hes so cute. cuz i wrote down some notes on a piece of paper and it fell out of my assignment notebook at my dads house and hes all "oooo one of your love letters....let me read it." and im all "its not a love letter....its notes....cuz im a nerd" and hes all "ok, ok so where do you hide the love letters?" and im all "i dont get any love letters" and hes all "LIES! i know you get them, i know what goes on with that" and im all "with what?" and hes all "the boys. i know what goes on with them" *facepalm* oh papa, you so silly.

The Ugly Truth

your a bitch. you present yourself to everyone as little miss goody goody but to everyone who knows the real you your a whiny bossy stupid conceded bitch. i hate you with a passion. i hate your mom and your dad. god, all the times Ive wanted to stab your mom for celebrating you for something you did terrible at. everybody hates you. yes,everybody . you think everyone adores you, but when your gone, you're the most hated person on the planet. your a terrible dancer. i hate the way you dance. your dancing makes me feel like Kent Julie.(famous ballet dancer). your mom thinks your the most talented, gifted person in the world but what shes trying to get you to achieve I've already accomplished. I've already got my pointe shoes and have danced. I've already got a solo/ lead. I've already had the opportunity to be on TV but because I'm so passionate about my dance i couldn't. Ive already accomplished school goals. your sad that we"ll never see each other after next year, but the rest of us are jumping for joy hoping to never see you again. just admit it. sometimes, people are going to do better than you. not everyone is going to like you, and at the rate your at, your not going very far. you would be the worst girlfriend on the planet. oh, thanks for calling me a slut, whore. i saw that attempt to be sexy and body roll upwards sticking your ass out in the open. i saw that. i saw you try to seduce Edin but really no one gives a shit. i hate how you think you can do whatever the hell you want, but you cant do anything. i love seeing you get yelled at. seeing your little miss goody goody act all go down the drain only for your stupid parents to be blinded by your fakeness and believe you all again. think about all the rude things you've done when we were playing around but your such an idiot, you took seriously. (although we did too) all the times i said i was joking when i said something mean i obviously want joking. i hate you Lizzie garrity. just cuz two guys like you, you think your life is terrible. I WOULD BE THRILLED IF VICTOR ORTIZ LIKED ME. you know i have a crush on him yet you keep bringing up he likes you. when me and maria walk away from you, we obviously don't want to be by you so don't run after us. nobody likes the way you butt into other peoples conversations when your obviously not a part of it. about the whole paranormal activity thing, it was for ME AND MARIA. i don't have to do everything with you, ok?!?! idiot. i hate you with a passion and it probably wont change.
                                                                         Maegan.
p.s i hope you step on a lego. (you KNOW that shit hurts)

Why the hell do I still think about him?

Ok, so I used to date this guy named jovanni. Geo for short. It was probably the best relationship I've ever been in. He was sweet, funny, caring all that good stuff. So one day he dumped me. Omg I was crying so hard. Then about three hours later he texted me saying "you know what, do you want to get back together?!?" and me being a caught up in the moment that he actually wanted me back I said yes. Well, that lasted for like two days. See, geo moved out of our school so we were only dating til one of us got asked out or started liking someone else. So then he told me that he started liking this chick named lina. So he dumped me. For real. I don't think I've ever cried so hard in my life. So I thought he was going to that Lina chick but no. He went to my BEST FRIEND he asked her out and she said yes. Well obviously I still liked him an he knew it. So every little cute thing he or she did, he told me about it. Why? I have no idea. So then my friend (Melanie) broke down and dumped him. Me being a good person asked if he was ok and he thought I was being a smart ass so he was "getting revenge" by telling me all about Lina and this other chick Emily. Yeah, total douche. But here's my problem I can't stop thinking about him. At all. Like I miss him but I don't miss him. We don't even talk just to have a conversation. I'm always thinking about him when I know I shouldn't. I miss him I guess. Not a lot but to the point where I'm constantly thinking about him. I need help. I should go to a therapist or something. But do t they tell the parents what you tell them? Hm I couldnt do that. I don't know why the hell I think about hom. I think it's cuz he was so sweet and did all these cute things that I kind I long for it I guess. I still have the voice message he sent saying I love you, I still have the pictures of him he sent me. I still miss him.

love is in the air....so someone needs to start polluting

so today me and Lizzie got into a huge fight. then she goes "i think were becoming like them(Sam and maria)" and i go "good i want to be a bit more like maria" and she goes "i wanna be a bit more like Sam" and i go "i wanna be more like Sam and maria." and she goes i wanna be a bit more like "Sam, maria and Jessie." so then i go "i wanna be a bit more like Sam, maria, Jessie, Mrs arnowitz, Mrs Schmidt and......your mom" and Sam and maria are all "dayyyuummm". and that's how i won that argument. omfg Lizzie thinks her life is just so fucking terrible. all because two guys like her. one of them just so happens to be the guy i like. yeah, THAT'S HOW LONELY AND UNLOVABLE I AM.  even the guy i like likes Lizzie. i think from now on I'm just going to like avoid her. or type exactly how i feel about her and put it in her locker on the last day of eighth grade. i really hope Edin doesn't ask her out. OH SHIT MY STRAIGHTENER I FORGOT IT WAS ON. there all better :] ooo Edin really likes Lizzie. or at least I'm starting to believe he does. cuz we  were in line for math and we were talking and edin comes up out of nowhere and is all "mmhh what are you talking about?" and thats really all the evidence i have but still. you know what i just realized? almost no attractive guys like me. except for uriel, but hes short and younger than me and hes just a cutie. so, mikey likes elly and mikeys okkk i guess and victor likes lizzie. mmmm victor... and edin likes lizzie and edins not that bad looking. and i think omar likes elly and omar isnt that bad at all. but what do i have? angel whos not attractive. to me at least. and bryan. bryan doesnt have any looks whatsoever. like theres always that guy with the horrible face but the amazing hair. yeah, hes not even that. but he likes me. CAN SOMEBODY PLEASE HELP ME. somebody, anybody, please tell me that some guy likes me or something.  like i know i dont need a boyfriend but having someone like that and you can be all cute too is super nice. OMFG so the wierdest thing happened, so once again angel ditched economy club to be with me and ms mccright saw us walking and was all "ARE YOU DATING HIM?!" and im all "no" and shes all "GOOD YOU BETTER NOT BE" O_o yeah, definately one of the more strange moments in life. god, i wish i had a boyfriend. like, itd be nice. somebody please help me!! well its now written in stone that angel likes me. because even JP pointed it out. she was all "ok. i think angel likes you" and im all "he does" and shes all "do you like him?" and im all "just as a friend" and shes all "good" so yeah, im going to go cry my eyes out ;] good bye! woah, not sure why i ended it with goodbye. that was strange.

i dont want you to get hurt

so we switched seats in class. I'm like right across from my old seats. so ms. mccright put all the eighth graders in their spots and then she had the eighth graders pick the seventh graders they wanted at their table. well, some. some she assigned spots. so i was like one of the last....8? i wanna say. and JP and maria are sitting next to each other and ms mccright are all "Jessica and Maria, pick your seventh graders" so they get all close and start whispering and JP says "Emily and Maegan" and I'm all "whaaattt?" super confused. so then we sat down and JP tells Emily "when she said seventh graders i immediately thought you" then she looks at me "and you cuz your cute" AGAIN WITH THE CUTENESS. I'm flattered. so then she goes "Lizzie drives me insane" and I'm all "omg me too!!" and she goes "she was looking at me telling me to pick her and in my head I'm all noooo" made me laugh. then Chris is being a total stupid head and starts arguing with her or something and JP goes "i don't just defend my self but i defend her(points to maria), her(points to Emily), and her(points to me). so if you start a problem with them , you'll be hearing from me, cuz I'm not afraid to punch you in the face" and I'm thinking me?! we've never really talked before and you want to defend me all because i sit at your table all of a sudden?!? ok. angel really likes me. like, I'm starting to feel a bit bad for the kid. like. i don't wanna date him. but hes trying soo hard. like today i hear "Maegan!!" i look its angel. i walk over to him and he goes "we're going to play football and i want you to watch" and I'm all "ok:]" but on the inside I'm all "angel why are you doing this to yourself." then i was leaving and he was running to get the ball during his game and me being the good person i am goes "bye angel I'm leaving" and i left a piece of paper that said bye on it in his book bag. and he LITERALLY pauses the game to run to me and give me a long hug. the guys were yelling at him but its like he couldn't hear them. (blinded and deaf by my cuteness, probably haha) so then like a couple minutes ago we were texting and i go "did you get my note?" and he goes "oh yeah i found it" and me being cute goes "did it make you smile?" and he goes "actually it did:]" i just don't want this crush to go far and then him realize its probably never going to happen. i don't want him to get hurt. i hope it doesn't get to that point.

awh maria!!!!

so maria texted me. she realllyyy likes my blog and she was all when i read your blog....i made one. its magical. and im all awh!!! i inspired someone to make a blog. she better follow me. then ill follow her!! i feel so amazing, im inspiring to people <3 shes so cute, i swear.

welcome back to hell

so this weekend was surprisingly fun. i think its cuz dern (my brother) was here. then again we did go to Pepes house (my godfather) i swear whenever we go there its so much fun. the night usually consists of stories, Pepe showing pictures of his most recent trip since his job causes him to travel a lot, food, and rock band. oh, rock band. what great memories you have brought my family and i. all the crazy dance moves you've encouraged my dad and Pepe to do. all the almost impossible songs you've dared us to try and succeed. all the times weve played until one in the morning without even realizing it. yes, weve had some good times with you, rock band. so on friday dern and mandy picked me up from lizzies house and we stopped at this store so brother could buy this really nice knife for his collection. then we had to pick up pops from fresco and dern got lost on the way there and the gps on his phone just took him in one big circle. then on saturday we played nintendo 64 (yeah, we own that). i learned how to play pokemon. and we also went to the mall and i bought some shirts from wet seal. when i tried them on at the house they were very tight fitting and the straps on one of the tank tops broke. so then today we went back to the mall, returned them and got store credit. hellz yeah. then we went to hot topic and i bought ramune!! ramune is like the best japanese drink in the whole world. its basicallly carbonated soda but the way you open it is so cool. its pretty weird to explain so you should google it. mandys new nickname for me is ramune. thought that was cute. then at the house i was working on homework and our cousins (?) came over and they were soo distracting. they werent annoying at all just distracting. and we also had mc donalds because mandy had been begging  for like a week. my aunt is in from....texas? i think. shes so cute. and my other aunt was staying over. so it was my grandpa and two aunts. brothers and sisters. theyre so cute, cuz theyre all old so they were like comparing medications and all. adorable. so i have this amazing weekend right? then i come home to my stupid ass stepdad and my loving mother. this house is no fun at all. its homework, dance, homework, eat, sleep. ok so i like never watch tv like ever. and they want to get my a bigger tv so i can game on it. seriously? i only watch tv when i go to sleep or on the weekends. and even on the weekends its just a little bit cuz were always doing something and i have to do homework and i have dance on sundays. im so excited cuz we have one more practice then we do full acts practices and then two dress rehersels and then the show!!! im so excited, its my first year on pointe. super thrilled. but yeah. i come back here where i always argue with my stepdad and its basically a mini hell. for me at least. hence the title. well we have to wait and see. i have a dermatoligist appointment tommorow. theyre going to burn my face. right after they numb it. with shots. yeah. : / pretty scary. tommorows also parent watching week for pointe. i hope pops can make it. maybe even dern. we'll just have to wait and see.

Somebody help me escape , please

So I'm not trying to run away or anything im just bored. I'm at the library with Lizzie. I'm actually posting this from mrs Garritys iPad. Well it's official, angel likes me. So last year when geo liked me, Edin and Uriel kept making fun of him. Well today they made fun of angel. Like Maria Sam and I were pulling a prank on Lizzie and I thought " well angels good at pranks so I'll get him" and then we were walking back and Edin came running and put his arms around me and angel, pushed us close together and said "couples!!" and then Uriel was all "such a romantic evening" god I swear. I love haning out with angel but if this shit Is going to be happening, I dont wanna. I like angel as a friend and only as a friend and I don't want him getting hurt. I mean his crush probably isn't that serious, but you know… HOLY SHIT!!!! Edin's going to ask out Lizzie!!!! Or at least thad what he told Jessie and Jessie told Lizzie. I really don't want them dating. She's going to be a terrible girlfriend. I told her that. I didn't say terrible, I just said bad. So she basically called me a slut. She was all " just because ive had no boyfriends and you've had 6 or how many guys you've dated just for fun, doesnt mean I'm going to be a bad girlfriend" I was literally going to explode. I was going to tell her everything. How I feel about about her. Then she told me she didn't know if she wanted to date him or not. I told her not to. She's going to get hurt by him. I just know it. But if she wants to go date him go head cuz frankly, I dint give a shit anymore. I'm just going to avoid her. Shell be with Edin all the time she won't even care. God,this just goes to show how fukin lonely I am. Even LIZZIES getting guys. I swear I'm going to be forever alone. Help me mandy. Please. Tell me,I'm going to find someone. That I'm not going to be alone forever. Tell me I'm going to find someone and it's going to last.

Please help me.

lesbian love (but not really)

so, angel likes me. Mandy thinks he looks like a lesbian thus explaining the title. its like sooo obvious omfg. like yesterday melanie came cuz it was her birthday and i ran to her and i jumped and she caught me and started spinning. and angel was there and i was all "see you cant do that" and hes all i think i can pick you up so then he put his arms in a small circle in front of him and hes all "your about this big right" and im all ummm i guess and hes all come here let me lift you and he lifted me and when he put me back down hes all "omg your so small" and then the other day he was supposd to go to enviromental club. but if he did i would be all by myself and so he decided to skip and stay with me. then he got yelled at by ms mccright and he had to go and he gave me like the longest hug in the world and hes all i wanna stay with you im sorry bla bla bla. its pretty cute.

supercutie!

so today we took pictures for marshals and i was of course wearing this shirt i recently got. I'm doing this project with Edin anushka and Robert. so i went to anushkas desk to ask her something and Hailey was all oh Maegan i like your shirt. and I'm all thank you i like your outfit. and shes all "YOUR SO CUTE OMG" and I'm all whaaatttt? so confused. so then i walk away and i hear her talking to JP and shes all "shes so cute i just wanna squeeze her and give her a big hug" so then at the actual picture taking event shes walking and I'm in her general direction and shes all "your just so cute can i have a hug?" and I'm all sure yeah. so then i hugged her and Edin was right next to me and hes all "what the hell just happened that was weird" and I'm all "yeah, but I'm cute so it doesn't mater: )" yeah, defiantly one of the more awkward moments in life.

so rebel

so the other day in library i logged onto my blog and i was talking about how i was posting from school and how im so rebel. then my librarian came and i got scared and exited out. haha yeah thats how rebel i am. maria was laughing at me. it was understandable though.