Hello, love

I haven't blogged for fifteen days, and that's not cool. So here I am. I wish I was one of those blogs that a bunch of people read. Not just because I blow their minds, or inspire them to become better people, but just because they think it's cool. Nathan has the hiccups ^_^ he's such a cutie, I swear. So tomorrow is twin day. You know, when people wear the same thing and now they're magically somehow twins. Loads of fun. I'm twinning with Jacob. Two months tomorrow <3 Mandys birthday is on Thursday. I can't say what I'm making her because she'll most likely read this. So there's this website called ask.fm and I kind of want to sign up for it. Have you guys heard of it? I think it's somehow related to instagram. People ask you questions and you answer them. I feel like that would be cool. I kind of want to change my instagram name to "@silly_kitty" but then I would have to inform everybody about it and it would just be too much work. And we all know I'm too lazy of a person to put forth that much effort. About the ask thing though, I don't know if people would actually ask me questions.  So I kind of want to quit Palombi Players. But here's the thing. On the day of the in-school play, I don't have to go to any of my classes, I just sit in the theater and chill with these super cool people until the end of the day. The in-school play just so happens to be on my birthday. Soooo on my birthday, I could do absolutely nothing and just hang with those people. Plus, we'd eat lunch fifth period, which is when Jacob eats, so theoretically I could spend a period with Jacob. But I don't want to deal with the wait. It'd be our four month the next day. Do you see where I'm stuck? I'm really dreading when the rehearsals go until five instead of just four. Ugh, I can't do it. Plus, if I do Palombi players I can't do track. But I can do track at Grant. YOU'RE WORTH MORE THAN GOLD!! I'm sorry, I have that song stuck in my head. Have you heard it before? It's by Britt Nicole. It's all about how you should love yourself because you're worth more than gold. Very uplifting. Jacob showed it to me, actually. Well, he told me to listen to it. I'm very bored. I miss the time when kids could just leave their house, walk over to their friends house, knock on the door, ask if they could hang, and if they couldn't, you went home. But if they could, the two of you went outside and had the merriest time. Then you'd walk over to the penny candy shop and get a milkshake or something, and everything was like fifty cents and everything was in black and white. But now everything is all about technology. And lazy children. I actually wrote a thing about that today. The prompt was "what would be different about a regular day if there was no technology" and you had to include the good and bad things about a day like that. So I went explaining how this generation strives off of technology and we need it to "survive" and how it's a human essence. I'm not even sure if I used the human essence thing right, it just sounded smart. I like using big words. I wish I knew more of them. I should go read a dictionary. Or drink tea. Whichever I so happen to run into first. I love you guys. Stay Magical <3

I'm sorry for.... whatever I did this time

Okay, I was washing my hands, loving my coconut and warm ginger soft soap when I looked up in the mirror and realized that it's been like a year since I've blogged. So here I am. I miss you guys, not that anybody really reads this. I've been good. Schools..... school. Jacob and I are good. Mom knows. My therapist had to tell her. She didn't understand. I mean, it's not like I'm going to have sex with the kid. I don't want to. I'm thirteen, first of all. Second, I think sex is unnecessary. And I'm thirteen. But the fact that she thinks I would offends me, I'm not going to lie. You would think she would trust her own parenting skills, right? She raised me better to not have sex. And I'm thirteen! Those people are at school who are like "Yeah, me and my boyfriend/girlfriend totally got it on last night." like..... why? Why do you think its so cool to have sex at this age? Do you even know like... what to do?! or did you just... you know what, were not going to have this conversation. bottom line, its stupid. end of story. But why is it such a big deal about me dating Jacob? She knew about Geo. no big deal. but BOOM once Jacob shows up, its all of a sudden the end of the whole world. Seriously, my therapist had to tell my mom. and my therapist had to tell me my mom was pregnant. What is this "family" coming to? my mom basically yelled at me for not having perfect skin. Maybe if i was Mandy. this wouldn't happen. What if i did have my first kiss? What would happen? what would they do? Who would I tell? Who could I trust with that? My friends, that's it. You know why? Because they support. They wouldn't get mad. They wouldn't go telling me that I'm being an idiot for letting that happen. Because they know that he wouldn't want to go any farther. I wouldn't let him go any farther. Maybe I can tell them not because "they're just stupid thirteen year olds too" but because they understand thirteen year olds better. Because if something were to happen, we'd link arms and build a wall. Its called always being there for people, Understanding. Maybe if adults thought like a thirteen year old (maybe not guys because I'm seriously tired of hearing the walking hormone excuse) and maybe if they listened, we wouldn't be having this whole problem. I've been ranting. I don't even remember what this blog was originally supposed to be about. Mom is all cool with it now though. Well, cool enough to the point where she doesn't cry every time i say Jacobs name. well, I'm going to go now. Stay Magical <3