Our conversations :D

ok, so basically this is all the cute things nico has said.

Me: watcha up to?
Nico: nm just in bed doing nothing
Me: you tired?
Nico: yes
Me: then take a nap sleepyhead
Nico: ok cutie.
:D
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Nico: im hungry
Me: well go eat something silly!
Nico: i am:)
Me: oh yeah? watcha eating?
Nico: a pillow
Me: hm, i dont think ive tried that before...
Nico: itz yummy :)
Me: I'll have to try that sometime
Nico: :)
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Me: watcha up to?
Nico: watching nightmare on elm street
Me: That's scary nico! i only watch scary movies if i'm with someone so i can cuddle up with them and scream. if i really need to.
Nico: really?
Me: mmhh
Nico: do you like to cuddle?
Me: Sometimes;D it depends on who im with ;)
Nico: like who?
Me: my friends;D and other people...
Nico: would you cuddle with me?
Me: mmhh:D
Nico: :)
Me: would you cuddle with me?
Nico: yes
Me: :)
Nico: :)
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Nico: my favorite movie is friday the 13th
Me: what's with you and scary movies?!?
Nico: so you can cuddle
Me: awh, i'd love to cuddle with you
Nico: :)
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Me: you still watching halloween?
Nico: yup
Me: how is it?
Nico: good
Me: i won't watch it unless i'm with someone. you know..cuddlin
Nico: :)
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Me" you have no idea, i'm so tired i'm not paying attention to what i'm saying so if i say something crazzyyy sry
Nico: ok cutie :)
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Nico: you tired?
Me: extremely
Nico: go to sleep
Me: but...freddie (kreuger)
Nico: :) ;) :)
Me: :) he's going to get me...
Nico: i won't let him
Me: you promise?
Nico: yes
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Me: i got a papercut opening a band aid :(
Nico: i'll kiss your booboo
Me: you will?
Nico: yup
Me: it"ll be all better:D
Nico: *sends picture of his lips in kissing position* (maria, i have to show you)
Me: aww nico!!! <3
Nico: :)
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Nico: what you doing?
Me: just...watching tv
Nico: cool u bored?
Me: very
Nico: really? maybe of i come over you won't be bored
Me: i'm sure i wont be :)
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Me: nico, im sleepyyyy
Nico: i'll let you sleep in my arms
Me: i'd love to:)
Nico: ;)
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Me: dude. the blanket i'm using is like super comfortable
Nico: i'm hotter than the blanket your using
Me: i'm sure you are ;)
Nico: you know i am
Me: mmhh;) & you know im pretty cute
Nico: yeah, i know:)
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i"m telling you this kid is confusing. oh, and now, angel ends all his texts with "mwah" cute.

I've got him wrapped around my finger again...:)

so, yesterday i went ice skating with camryn. holy shit, it was so much fun. see, she used to take classes at mcfetridge like me s i thought we would be going fast, right? she forgot most of the stuff. she probably fell like 5 times. technically, we did skate with Nico (he couldn't come) because we skyped him the entire time. and lucky for me, i just so happened to look amazing yesterday, and since camryn really couldn't skate for shit, i had to hold the phone most of the time, and talk to Nico. this is where the explanation of the tile comes in. like i said, i looked amazing and i had to hold the phone most of the time, so he saw my face a lot.ok whenever i would smile AT CAMRYN (which means i wasn't looking at him at all) he would have this huugee smile. at my smile. i could see it out of the corner of my eye. and we were eating fries and i wasn't looking at him obviously i wasn't going to stare at him and eat, but he was staring at me. yup, I've got him exactly where i want him. mwuahaha! AND THEN he text camryn yesterday asking if i was awake. see how thoughtful he is? he didn't want to text me because if i was asleep then he would've woken me up, which he obviously didn't want to do.  and he's starting to be sweet to me again. all is going well in the world. so yesterday i went shopping with Elly. my mom needs a dress for Friday, and there is a Carson at the hip so she took Elly and i to the hip. but she was so panicked about letting us shop by ourselves. she was like "DON;T TALK TO STRANGERS" "MEET ME HERE AT 6:20" ok, Elly thought it was six thirty so we got there at 6:21 and when we got there we saw my mom calling us. we were a minute late, seriously. and then she extended it to 6:45. but we kind of broke the no talking to strangers rule because we went to zumiez and one of the guys that works there was talking to us about how he never had a lot of money when he was our age and how he never got to go to stores by himself.  and then this guy told Elly he liked her shirt. so, we saw some people from our school. people Elly just so happens to hate. and they went into the same store as us. but then Elly saw the guy she likes and she wanted to stalk him. but by the time we turned around, he was long gone. overall, it was a pretty successful shopping day. i got candy, a bracelet,  2 pairs of underwear, and pants. they"re like a nice teal color. love them. so when i was in hot topic there was this guy, and i think it might've been the guy who stalked me at the other hot topic. no joke. i swear, i just can't keep them away.... lol jk of course i can just show them my face..

            oh! so this like just happened a few minutes ago, and I'm adding it now. so we were talking and he told me he was tired so i was like "take a nap, sleepyhead" and he's like "ok cutie" *victory dance* :D can't stop smiling about it.

And now I'm drunk and wearing flip flops on fifth avenue

love that line. i don't know why though. its from poses by rufus wainwright slept over at emelies last night. it was pretty fun. so, the more i think about it, the less i like victor, and the more i think about dating him, the more it scares me. see,victor seems like he'd be a good bad boyfriend. like, he's really cute and sweet, and says all the nicest things, but he's perverted and he'd hurt me when he would dump me. now don't get me wrong he's is till pretty damn attractive,but....i don't know. and with nico, it just seems like he wouldn't be perverted. like, he'd be really sweet and nice and stuff. and when he would break up with me it would be as nice as possible. let me down easy. don't you love how I'm figuring out the break ups too? because i know they're going to dump me. its just a well known fact. scientifically proven. by me. i went to the mall today, which was a huge spirit lifter because while in hot topic there was this really cute guy. he looked about eh, 13ish. and he was stalking me around the store! love it. like, he was literally following me. i went to look at the sunglasses, he went to look at the sunglasses, i went to the shirts, he went to the shirts, i went to pay, oh look, there he is by the cash register. he was just so attractive. and then we went into claires and there was these two guys and they were buying stuff for their girlfriends. thought it was so cute. they were looking at necklaces and one of them asked the other "do you think she'll like it?" love it. i seriously wanted to go up to him and give him a hug and be all "yes, she'll love it:D" but that would be extremely creepy. tomorrow i'm going with elly to her tumbling practice because my mom has to work and scott is working on his car. then, when my mom gets off of work, I'm going ice skating with camryn tommorow. but i think nico is coming. which should be interesting. I'm sorta excited to meet him but then again, I'm nervous. he's supposed to be like really tall like five four. which is like crazy for me because I'm a tiny four nine. BUT THEN AGIN IM CUTE AS HELL SO IT DOESNT MATTER. haha:D love you, whoever you are.

I'm telling you, this kid wants me.

ok, so Nico is like seriously wants me. cuz yesterday he sent me a pic of his Christmas eve party outfit and i was like "you look so cute!" and he's like "your cute too" then he wanted to see my outfit today and i sent him a pic and he's like "wow you look so pretty" then we were talking and we started talking about black ops, and he was like "you play?!?" and i was like "yeah" then he's like "omg!!! :) :)" then just now i was like "so were you satisfied with your presents?" and he's like "yeah, i have you remember?" awww! love him. i think I've developed a slight crush on him and i would actually love to date him, now that i think about him. well, its good he keeps hitting on me. :D actually, now that i think a bout him, i would love to date him. i mean, think about it, he's zoo sweet, he's good looking, he's not perverted, he actually cares and listens, and he keeps hitting on me, which means the idea of us dating has crossed his mind before. i wouldn't mind dating him. nope, not at all.....

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!! XD

well, id have to say that this christmas was pretty successful. i got everything i asked for. well, almost. i didn't get my red hoodie or final fantasy, but those are things i can buy my self. i got a huge 42 (or 46) inch tv that is also used as a computer. so, guess where I'm typing this from;] i think Nico might ask me out.... to be honest, id be really happy if he did. plus, that would take  my mind off of victor. the more and more i think of it, the less i sorta want to date him. JP talked to him, but he really didn't seem to give a shit. nico would be a wayyy better boyfriend,anyway. we actually have a lot in common and he keeps flirting and he's not perverted. at all. which is glorious. well, i have to spend time with the family. merry christmas!!

Merry Christmas. Love, Maegan

finally, winter nreak is here. sheesh i dont know how long ive been waiting for this. maria was my secret santa!!! love it. she got me bath and body works in a cute bag:D so yesterday was soo much fun.i sleptover at ellys house and we had a little party. with alchohol. lots of alchohol. now, i'm not goin to lie, i got a bit buzzed. like if i had one more i wouldve been  tipsy. so not that bad. but elly was gone. like completely. we were sitting down and everything was fine, nobody seemed drunk. then we got up to go get something and everything was like, moving for me. but elly couldnt even walk. she was doing lunges just to move. it was sooo funny. we got lucky though, because her dad didnt decide to come down until after she sobered down a bit. she did pretty good, had a whole conversation with him and was walking. she could walk a straight line after a it. but then she insisted we have a dance party. so she went upstairs, grabbed a dress for her and i, told me to put it on and then she started dancing. it was sooo much fun you dont even understand. plus, she was still a bit drunk so her dancing was....very... funny. gotta love her. i sobered up like nothing. my alchohol tolerance level must be high. oh, and lizzie slept over too. and since we were drinking and dancing and blablabla she wasnt very...comfortable.like, she stopped dancing and started watching a movie. she even told elly and i "im not very happy with the sight of you guys, like at all today.". MAYBE YOU NEED TO GROW UP. im not saying what we were doing was right, but the way she was acting was like she didnt even want to have the slightest bit of fun. shes too.....good. and innocent. its not like anyone else was there, so nothing was going to happen. she was just, i dont even know how to describe it. i guess i can see where she was going with it though. i mean, you basically grow up with someone and theyve been a certain way, then all of a sudden one day theyre a tottaly different person. itd be hard. so i saw one of my presents today. didnt mean to, honest, i walked in the room, saw it, then was yelled at to go to sleep. it was a new pink straightner. and it wasnt like that girly pink it was that kind of pink that makes you feel like a bad ass cuz you have a straightner or something in that shade. you know what i mean? exacty. i got my presents today. well not mandys. hers i got a looong time ago. i got pops, scott, my mom and daurna. but hes just getting like 40$ and a a card. ok, so theres a present behing my tree thats sooo super huge. its wider than my tree. and its so big, they had to put 2 bows on it. yeah, serious chiz. ok so my moms present was already on sale but the lady thought it was cute how i was buying my moms present all by myself blablabla (she was on the other side of where i was) so she gave me two dollars off. it was supposd to be 39 dollars but i only payed 37.30. but heres the thing. it was originally 100$!!!! i walked out of there a satisfied shopper.

 oh! so you know the meme thats all "blablabla ALL the blablabla"? well we had our christmas party today, and i was doing my thing and then before we left i look on the board and i see that meme and it says "jingle ALL the way!!" i officaly love my class. forever and ever.

If you want something done right, you gotta do it yourself.

So today i went to therapy. It was pretty cool. She could tell i hated the whole living situaton and she was like "you look miserable. Want some tea?" and she took her shoes off, and tottaly just got so comfortable in her little chair. She said by the way i expressed myself she could tell i was a brilliant kid. She told me she doesnt judge, which is fabulous. The only time she will get involved is if she feels like im going to harm myself or others. Everything i tell her is strictly confedential. Love it. Shes pretty cool. Her name is dr. Clark i believe. So for our science project thing we have to get pictures for our "family album" and i kept telling my mom that there was a certain type of trait that person had to have but she kept telling me no and she knew what to do and i wasnt explaining it wrong and im two seconds away from getting a table. She also banged the table very hard. Poor table. So anyways shes looking up the exact oppisite of what im telling her and imnot saying anything (though i should have!) cuz she was already super pissed. So tommorow im just going to have to wake up early, and get the damn pictures myself. I swear sometimes my mom is stupid. She threatens me saying im going to get an F then when she tries to "help" i end up getting a lower grade because of her!! But lets be honest, if something happened to her id go a little crazy. I dont think im seeing her until sunday. Cuz tommorow im going with scott in the morning (ellys having a sleepover thing and we dont think lizzie was invited so i dont wanna show up with one extra bag tommorow) then friday im… oh wait im seeing her friday. I swear nicos so cute, because hes been like, hitting on me i guess for the past two or three days. Hes soo cute, love it.

Aw, Logan. I'll never forget you.

Ok, so i was on omegle and one of the people said he just got out of a break up. I told him i was sorry you know? The usual stuff and then we went on talking about how it happened and that he still misses her and he was basically ranting. I was giving him the best advice ive ever given in my whole life. And it wasnt the usual " other fish in the sea" shit, it was legitimate advice. At one point i said ( i didnt tell my real name or age) "*sigh* id like to help you logan. Honest, you seem like a nice guy. But frankly, im only sixteen and theres nothing much i can do. I know youll find someone else and i know you will. Logan, goodnight, goodbye, and goodluck *insert heart* (blogger wont let me)
" and right as i was about to disconnect he wrote back saying "aww" then i left. I will never forget him. He was 22. Pretty nice guy. I liked him. I hope he finds someone. He will. Plus, it sucks being alone on christmas… oh! And mitchellhe was so formal and nice and polite. He was from the netherlands. I was goin to go so i was all "well mitchell i have to go to sleep now for it is midnight and i have school tommorow. It was a pleasure meeting you." and he was all "sleep well"

Ay Mi Planta!!! XD

ok, so i know i havent been blogging like, ever but its been...busy. ok, so anyways thursday and friday were like super fun!!! i am now an official cool person to hang out with according to sam and william. williams not as bad as people say he is. ok, so i kind of want him and sam to date but then again i dont. hes stealing her away from us. like, on friday he refused to let go of her, it was like "DUDE SHE WAS OURS FIRST. BACK OFF" but sam told me she doesnt like him like that so its all good. ok, so on friday, william, maria, lizzie, and i were walking to marias house becasue she wanted to change. so on the way there we run into karina and patricia and they just came back from the cvs and they were like "we just saw victor ortiz there!!" and i was thinking "bitches. go. away." i was so jealous. anyways, maria gets changed and william wants us to walk to his house so he can change into his little conductor suit for glee, and so were walking and william crosses the street but we all stay on the other side. lizzie had told us she knew the way back to prussing from there so me and maria decided to be crazy and ditch her. so were running and then after a while, were like, ok shes going to be mad, lets wait, so we wait and we see her and she turns around and starts walking so were like ok she knows what shes doing whatever so we keep running. we get to prussing and lizzie isnt there. she comes all crazy and mad and on the verge of tears and blablabla so then she goes off on maria and i and shes like "dont talk to me right now seriously" ok. shes probably the only person ever who has cried over someone ditching her. i ditch people all the time! and so does maria! and usually the people are cool about laugh it off haha whatever. but no, lizzie runs into the mobiles and were thinking shes extending the story and telling her mom we left her and she almost got kidnapped or some shit like that so i call stephanie and ask if i can go to her house cuz she lives like right by prussing and so i call her she asks her mom we arrange this whole thing and then lizzie calls me to come back in the mobiles and apparently she didnt tell her mom and she acted all cool after that so whatever, then i had to sleep over her house. but before that we went to this restaurant with anushka and her 12 year old uncle tony. i think omars uncle owns the place becasue we saw him there and he was helping clean and everything like a good person so i kept trying to get him to notice me and say hi and he never did until the end. tony has internet on his phone and we kept looking up songs and me and lizzie were rapping and the whole place was silent. it was pretty insane. oh yeah, so anushka took the plant and ripped a leaf off and was tearing it up and the lady saw it and was all "AY MI PLANTA!!!" and moved it. super hilarious. i really don't think me and victor are going to end up together because i found out he likes that whore shelby. ok, so dos made out with her and victor told him that he didnt like how he did that right in fornt of him because he liked her. and now the more i look at him by her the worse it makes it. he was talking to her and he was smiling and nodding his head at everything she said! BTW he was the cutest smile and laugh ever. like, in the world. i dont even understand why he likes her. shes ugly, shes nasty, and shes stupid and mean. this girl amy had a petition to get her kicked out of the school. doctor Ehrenberg said if she got sixty or more people to sign, he would do it. i think she got to 40 before something happened and she had to stop. victor probably told shelby and she told her parents. crazy. i'm (somewhat) pretty. i'm not a compete and total whore. he should be going after me. im going to have to talk to jp... he doesnt even know me that much. and im pretty sure i already talked about this but emily was talking to him on facebook and she asked if he knew me and he said "yeah, i see her around school." made me happy for about three days, you have no idea. well, now im at pops house, so im going to be with la familia. i swear, our family is so attractive....XD haha

The people who deserve nothing are handed everything...

*cough* lizzie. god i really do hate her. so yesterday i had one of my crying break downs and my mom walked in on it. normally i would stop crying, but i didnt. i just kept on crying. i told her everything. well, almost everything. i told her why i hate scott, how it feels like my life is being lived for me, that nothing is fair, and i even told her that sometimes i just want it all to end. i didnt tell her i cut myself or that i swear, because i was too scared. but i did tell her i did date. and when i told her that i want it all to end sometimes she said i was scaring her. she suggested family therapy because of the whole scott situation but i told her i need self therapy. so i think i might be doing that. if i do i know im going to cry and i hope that isnt a problem. now, im not a whore or anything but i need something (or someone) to keep my mind off of this whole issue. perhaps a boyfriend.... *cough* victor ortiz *cough* or just a really good friend. i need someone like....like maria. i feel as if shed be very understanding. we need to have a sleepover at my house. (got that maria? ;D) maybe i should just stop thinking about it all together. no, because it would be locked up inside of me and i would have random crying sessions all over again. im just worried my mom will put me in a mental hospital or put me with a therapist who specializes in mentally insane people. hm whatever. guess what guys? everythings ok with me and nick now. he was all "im going to start being nice to you" then we hugged. all is good in the world. im gonna go nom on some food.

Soo....Ricky....

*deep breath* nutcracker"s finally over, thank god. it wasnt all that bad but my feet hurt like crazy. so ricky came to the show today. umm what do i say....hes weird. like, really weird. and mean. im not sure if thats how he is with everybody but...hes pretty mean. not as fun as i thought he would be, ill be honest. like, i was getting my makeup done and i went back to mandy and ricky and hes like "whats thats shit on your face?" and im (already pretty annoyed with him) like "whats that shit on your face?" and he kept talking about his and mandys....sexual occourences. like i know about it but i dont want to know about it. i give him a C+ over all. omg my throat hurts like fuuuuuuck. i sneezed and someone stabbed me in the throat. at least thats what it felt like. god, i hope its not strept. so today for ballet camryn and i pulled a prank on hunter. well, we were going to, but never had time to. so, hunter thinks me and nico are dating, or atleast end up dating. so camryn, nico, and i decided to have a little fun. basically, we pretended that me and nico actually were dating. but she was like never around us, we didnt have time, and nico was with his mom. he broke his knee so he couldnt move to another room. it was soo sad. cuz me and camryn forgot he broke it and were like "move to another room!" and hes like "i cant..." aww i felt so bad. and he apoligized a million times so were going to do it tommorow during pointe class. going to be hilarious. hes like "so like, do i call you babe or something?" and im like "if you want..." hes like "ok, i will." so him and camryn pulled a joke on me. he pretended like he loved me and blablabla and of course i figured it out, im just that smart. and then today he was flirting and im like "camryn, he knows i know it was a joke, right?" and shes like "yeah..." and im like "so why is he still flirting..." and shes like "oh my god". pretty crazy. anyways, im going to audition for swan lake and im pretty sure im going to get a a good part. almost positive. its like almost written in stone that im going to get a lead for jazz though. we have to wait until after christmas for him to tell us though. grr i cant wait that long its like two weeks. not even we have to wait after. lets see...its 17 days!!! that is way too long! eh, im sure it will go by fast. atleast i hope it does. so i didnt realize how many pictures i had on my ipod because ricky and mandy were looking through them from the very beginning and they started eh, two hours before the show started and after the show they were almost half way done. thats insane. ive been working on it though, every once in a while i just pick random pictures and delete them. but first i scan them cuz theres some pics i have to keep. well thats pretty much it for now.

I just want to explode

i really do. sometimes i just cant handle living and i want it all to end. i lose it. break down. cry like crazy. when i say i cut myself i dont mean that i tottaly make myself bleed. no, i just...enough to feel it. i have one little tiny scar on my wrist because i was so mad at myself for what i did. its like a promise to myself never to do that to anyone again. i want to scream. i want to scream so bad but i cant. theres times when i just want it all to end. honestly, where am i going with my life? i know im only 12, but theres a lot more pressure on me than you think. dance. where the hell is that going? nowhere because im not good enough to make it anywhere. lets see, im going to be alone forever. guys are so stupid these days they want the girl thats the cutest. it doesnt matter if shes smart or not. they dont care about anything like that (atleast not in my school) if shes cute and clueless, go for her. like lizzie and vicor for example. lizzie and every single guy in the school we should say. every guy likes her, but why?!?! i mean i guess im pretty, i can flirt, ive dated before but yet they all go for her because cute and clueless.  friends. lately it seems like everyone hates me. like theyre all trying to avoid me. they cant stand to be seen with someone like me because i dont meet their standards. as i type this i look at my fingers and see sausages. theyre soo terrible. i wish it would all just end. or that i could wake up one day and it would all be magically perfect. that atleast one guy would like me and itd be obvious (besides angel) that i could be as skinny as elly and as smart as natalia. that i could be just a good of dancer as sydney, alex, and bryanna. because you know theyre going places. i want to cry. but really theres no place i can but school. even then, the teacher talks to you blablabla next thing you know youre being sent home and being called crazy by your mother as shes signing you into a mental hospital. i cant even cry at my dads house which is where i would like to because i have mandy. i wish victor ortiz would just notice me sometimes other than "that girl to check out".  i wish i could just tell everyone what i think and then end it all. my mom just walked in and yelled at me. i cant live here anymore. i just cant.

Take me to your best friends house, normally were making out. ohh yeah

i love that song. its called tongue tied by grouplove. you may know it as that song from the iPhone commercial "take me to your best friends house, i love you then i love you now ohh yeahh" today was pretty weird. idk why there was nothing strange about it really it just felt weird. i thought it was Monday. so Mandy called me at four in the morning. i answered it because i thought it was something important but then i remembered its Mandy soo yeah. well we were talking and Scott comes in all crazy and yelling bla bla bla. then i go downstairs and my mom starts yelling and whatever. like, ok if I'm going to lose sleep because of something i  decided to do, then just let it be that way. if i make a mistake and my whole day is ruined that's fine because i decided to do it. all i really want is some god damn independence. like, my life is being lived for me and its so....generic. don't do this don't do that don't do this because its weird. ok, its weird in your eyes because your so stupid but in my eyes its different. something i really want. if my parent and Scott let me be the real me for at least one day, they wouldn't even know who i am. they think i know nothing. i know wayyy more than I'm supposed to (about the dirty things) they think i don't swear or that i know what they're talking about when they have "adult" conversations. they have those conversations right in front of me like I'm stupid and cant comprehend what they're saying. i just want to explode. you know how people scream into pillows to let anger out? normal thing. well i told my mom i wanted to scream into a pillow and shes like "that's not normal Maegan" wtf?!?! people scream into pillows all the time. i just want to tell her everything. i just want to run away. i just want to live with my dad. he gets me. he let Mandy date with no big deal ( at least not that big i don't think) so it wouldn't be much of a hassle when i start dating (and actually telling them. please, Ive dated before.) he said he'd let me get a lip ring when I'm 16.i cant even tell my mom i want one without the fear of her thinking I'm insane...

            well, now that that's out, back to reality. omg it was so funny because lizzie tottaly interrupted the discussion during school and ms mccright was all "lizzie, your not that important." and on accident i yelled out "thank you!" haha oops :D so Elly had to ask ms mccright about some counseling stuff and she came to me and shes like "oh yeah, i may have told ms mccright you cut yourself." i freaked out. nobody was supposed to know about that except the people i told. my mom had a long discussion with me about why that's wrong and blablabla and i was thinking "heh, too late for that now..." but Elly was just kidding. I think. I hope.

Aww

so today was the first dress rehearsal for nutcracker. it went pretty good, i think. me and Cameron were going to skype Nico but he got grounded from skype because he got a 70 on a test. speaking of Nico he is so adorable! so his dad is a firefighter and hes getting an award tonight and Nico didn't know what to wear. so i said "you should wear nice pants and a nice shirt. and because its firefighter stuff make it a red shirt or blue shirt. but not too dark, like light blue" then he went to check his closet. and hes like "ok ill wear that" he listened!!! made me sooo happy. then i went on stage but i didn't tell him so i went back and i was like "sorry i was on stage" and hes like "ok, i hope you did good." and i said "thanks. i think i did good" and he goes "you did awesome" awh. adorable. so hunter made a bet with herself that me and Nico are going to be dating by next year, at least. and I'm like "hes younger than me though" and shes like "beyonce and jay-z are soo far apart" so whatever. i wouldn't mind dating him, but i still got my eyes on victor ;D so theres this guy named nick who shares a post with Elly and hes pretty mean to me. i don't wanna say bullying, but hes pretty scary. he says I'm too short and when i don't listen to him, he goes "I'm just going to have to make you ugly now" but isn't that kind of a compliment?!?!? because hes basically saying that I'm not ugly now and that I'm pretty. doesn't make sense. but whatever I'm not going to let him get to me. nope. i totally rocked my costume. the shade of blue is like made for me. beautiful. Ricky's going to see me on Sunday with Mandy. which means hes missing a bears game to see it. which is supposedly like huge. i bet when I'm dancing I'm going to look and see them like making out. *sigh* yup. plus they're going to be in the back because my mom couldn't get good enough seats. (Mandy, I'm sooo sorry.) maybe you can sit by the piano. or on the balcony. give you and Ricky some privacy. eh, well have to wait and see.

Happy birthday mommy!!

Ok well i shouldnt out how old she is so ill put it in math 2(18)+ 3. There you can figute that out for yourself. Anyways i dont know what were doing for it. But whatever. I think were going to like mart anthonys or something. Im making her a cake:D

Drama, gtfo.

ok, so at ballet yesterday (it was 2 hours) camryn was skyping her friend named nico. now, nico isnt all that bad looking btw. and so i was talking to him being all cute and stuff, you know just being myself and we had a conversation whatever nothing much right? well like two hours after practice, she texted me saying that nico wanted to call me! so, apperantly he thought i was cute and like wanted to date. so then i get a voicemail from nico. hes all "hey its nico i just wanted to say hi, call me back" i didnt call back. but he did. so i answer and hes like "hi" and im like "nico?" and hes like "yeah its me" and then im all "umm, cameron sayed you wanted to call me because you thought i was cute" and he interrupted with "yeah" and im like "but i like someone else, a lot (victor!! <3) but we can still be friends" and hes like "oh. ok" i was like "so were friends right?" and hes like "yeah, were friends" and we continue talking. so anyway we text now and were friends on skype. so i went to the dentist today and i almost died. (this was not my regular dentist btw)  ok, so she was doing the count thing with her hook thingy and she came across my loose tooth. she started tapping it and i didnt think much of it. then she started hitting it. really hard and she hit it like 3 or 4 times then she hit once really hard and it came out. hurt like hell. then she was brushing my teeth with the fancy toothbrush. FIRST OF ALL she didnt even let me choose my flavor of toothpaste, she just gave me mint. then she was brushing my top teeth and cut my lips four times!!! they still hurt. then her water hurt really bad, for some reason. it was like a million needles stabbing my mouth at once. then she was all "im sorry next time that wont happen" and im thinking bitch there will be no next time with you. and through all this my mom wasnt even in the room so i was by myself with someone who could have possible killed me. and after all this she didnt even give me a free toothbrush or anything. im pretty sure thats illegal...

       so tommorow me and maria might go to the mall to see santa claus!!! were silly. we are also going to buy gifts for our secret santa thing. it was just a thing me, elly, sam, jacky, maria, anushka and lizzie did. i got sam. shhh... she told elly what she wanted for christmas and elly told me so im going to get that. she wants nerd glasses from claires. ok well i just learned that maria cant come so nevermind on that... maybe elly will come. noo she didnt want to take a pic with him last time we were at the mall so... im not taking lizzie. hmm and im definately not going by myself becasue that makes me look sooo lonely. maybe i will take lizzie, just to be nice... hmm probably. shes not that bad, theres somethings shes cool to do with but most times i want to chop her head off. anyways... HAPPY HOLIDAYS!!!

Ahhh!!!! we were so close!!!!

omg today was crazy yet amazing. so after math, victors class comes out and we walk back with them. me as close to victor as possible so then I'm walking and he looks back, looks at me, and then moves a bit closer. I'm telling you....  then i go into class and i tell JP and Emily and maria and JPs all "do you really like him?" and i go "*blushes & smiles* yeah,," he gave me a heart murmur! then she goes "I'm going to talk to him" and I'm like "no he doesn't really know me" and she goes "when I'm done, you'll be the only person he knows" and I'm like "but-" "I DONT CARE. let me do my thing" then Emily's all "let her do her thing" and i sigh. i don't think she ever did though. so then after school me maria Sam and Elly were by the mobiles and joey Gonzalez (Elly's crush) some guy and victor were playing football and joeys all "victor go on the other side" the side we were on. and he walks over all cool puts his bag down and starts walking in our direction LOOKING AT ME BY THE WAY and I'm all "omg maria hes coming over here ohmigodohmigodohmigod" and I'm basically freaking out and shes like "then turn around!!" "right." turns out he was walking to the side. but we still made perfect eye contact. perfect. eye. contact. so anyways other than that school was pretty good. social studies was fun cuz me maria and JP were talking and laughing all cute like. omg Lizzie's such a fail cuz me and Elly left our table/row thing and we went across and we didn't invite Lizzie and shes like "I'm not talking to you guys" and I'm like "whatd you say?" and shes like "i said I'm not-- hmm" haha epic fail!!  then in science we had to switch seats and I'm looking for a seat cuz I'm a nerd and i had no immediate people to go to and then i hear "Maegan!!" and guess who it was? Jessica plaud. so i get over there and she starts laughing and I'm like "what?" and shes like "I'm excited" so i sit next to Edin, an empty seat, then Michael. and across from JP and diagonal to tomasz and Hailey. this year should be fun....

oh! remember how in my dream how victor fell and i went and helped him? well when he was playing football, i walked past him and two seconds later...he fell. its all coming together...

I have the authority to slap you...

so today was just....amazing. ok, so me and maria are walking down the hallway looking for Sam and victor was there and so we pass him up (eye contact was made) and then we find Sam and she wants to go back and so we pass up victor again (no eye contact this time) and then we see Jacky and she wants to go to the cafeteria so we have to walk back again but THIS time joey Lopez jumps in front of me and we have a conversation and victor is staring at me. you know how you can feel when someones staring at you, yeah. then i give joey a hug and leave. then in breakfast Jacky told me that not only was he looking at me but he was looking at me and smiling!!! ahh!!! the chances are getting higher people. then Elly posted a pic of me and her on facebook and he liked it!!! <3 we are at a 82% chance here. you don't even understand the seriousness of this predicament. its pretty serious. i also wanted to say congrats to my maria!!!! she made it to science fair but sadly she didn't place :( i thought hers was the best!!! but i must admit she was up against some pretty harsh competition. salma stole my idea from last year and put lights on her board but she didn't place either. everyone who placed was from my class, that's how cool we are. so i went to the doctors yesterday and it turns out i have a virus and a heart murmur. now i don't think heart murmurs are a serious thing. i have to go to the doctors again and if they think its bad i have to go to a cardiologist. but she also said it could be caused by the virus and its not bad but its here to stay. basically my heart has an extra beat. but my dad has had it his whole life and hes still alive so i should be fine. the chances of me dying are like 1%. apparently my heart is going to flutter sometimes and its going to scare the crap out of me but ill be fine. so maria's so cute shes all "victor gave you that extra beat!!" awh shes so cute:D

mario bros frustration

ok so theres this thing called mario bros frustration and i had to put my favorite line.

"you know mario you are brave. if i was a plumber in new york and i found myself in an kingdom always trying to save this dumb bitch who always manages to get herself kidnapped i.. i just couldnt do that i dont have the patience for this."
    love it.

ugh, i hate being sick.

so yesterday i wasn't feeling so good so my mom took me to the doctor. god that place is weird. I've been going there since i was a baby so they kind of got used to me and ill be walking down the hall and some random lady will be all "Maegan!!. which is kind of what happened. cuz we were leaving and this black lady (i don't even know her name was all "Maegan! god your growing up. i like your hair like that. it looks pretty." and I'm just like "thank you" but what i was really thinking was "lady, i don't even know your name all i know is last time i was here you gave me three shots" Mandy has a ROTC competition on Saturday. therefore shes not going to papas house on Friday therefore neither am i. daurnas so cute cuz i was all "i look bad today." and hes all "why because your hair has curls?" and I'm like "yes!" and hes all "so?! it looks delicious" nice. oh! so remember that dream i had about victor? yeah, well because dreams are connected to reality i decided to wear my pretty perfume (from pink) and not only did i see him again but i bumped into him on my way to math!! (I'm sorry maria i didn't tell you because when we got back we had to do a lot of work) ok so i was walking to math all by myself because Elly wasn't there and i was looking down and walking and all i knew was a class was coming and so I'm walking with my head down and i bump into someone and i look up and I'm all "I'm so sorry" then my brain actually realized who it was and all quiet like really quiet I'm like "ohhh" and hes all "no no I'm sorry" and then hes walking away and hes all "see you round" *victory dance* THE CHANCES ARE GETTING HIGHER PEOPLE!!!! XD. I'm telling you it might just happen eventually. i hope he gets transferred to gifted and then JP is all "oh ill show him everything he can just sit where Chris sits" cuz i sit next to Chris. see what i did there? JP always wants to "help" people and she knows i like him and last week she said she was my new best friend. so best friends do that for each other right? but he probably wont get transferred to gifted because nothing ever works out the way you want it to. man, i cant text anyone. well, i can probably text Mandy shes really doesn't care. i have no idea what I'm going to do. this day is going to go by slowww... also, i was being so rebel and i was texting elly during math. cuz she wasnt there and daniel is all "your not supposd to have your phone out!!!" haha silly

So i had a dream last night…

That i was on this swing thing that was attatched to a tree and i was just swinging and then victor ortiz came with this little girl and is all "can i join you?" and i go "sure" so i get off and let him swing but he goes realllyyy high and he falls off from like realky high up and then i run to him and i just touch where he was injured and he heels… then he starts hopping and goes "im a bunny rabbit!" and i go "Aww" and tickle his tummy. Well, i dont literally tickle him its just liks that small little tiny tickle someone does like directly in the middle of your tummy. You know what i mean right? Anyway, turns out its thanksgiving and theres a whole party thing inside. So i run to elly and im all "holy crap guess what just happened" and she goes "what" thsn victor comes out of nowhere and hugs me from behind and goes "hey elly. Oh, were dating now" and elly freaks out and starts screaming which turns into an alarm waking me up…

Shool was just...amazing

im not sure why exactly. elly and sam left at about 11:40 because they were sick, so you think itd be kind of a bad day. but it wasnt. see in math it goes me, elly, then this quiet eigth grader named allen (whos supposx to be a freshman) and ws had to do a problem out of the book and i was sorta confused and so i was all "allen. What did you get?" and hes all "25" and then ms loy is all "the answer is 25" and i was all "oh look at you, getting answers correct" and he goes "im cool like that". So that was nice. Then because elly and sam left me and maria wouldve been all alone at our posts so lizzie let me go to marias post. Victor ortiz was in ms demmas room because his class goes there for reading so when his class came out me and maria had to hold the doors for them. So hes coming right and he walks through the door and he stops RIGHT IN FRONT OF ME "fix his shoe" turn his head, look at me and smile!!! Love it. Just put a huge smiley face on my day. Im telling you, the percents are rising, there is a higher chance we will go out. Im sure of it.

Oh yeah, i forgot about that

so i forgot that Mandy was going to be calling me every Sunday shes not with me. i think that's pretty cute. so yesterday i went to muvico with Elly to see happy feet two. it was such a good movie i kinda want it on DVD. so apparently there's this new horror movie coming out called women in black. and  the ad for it is a mirror and in "blood" it says what did they see. and i didn't see the little censor thing cuz i looked in the mirror and a face popped up. like, it was in the right hand corner so if i hadn't looked up i never would've seen it.scared the crap out of me, yes it did. so obviously me and Elly didn't want to sit by my mom and Scott so we sat like three rows infront of them. and at first it was just me and Elly in the row but then some guy and his girlfriend I'm guessing came and sat on the opposite end away from us. ok, well its dark in the movies and he was kinda far and he looked just like Seth Meyers. so, like any other seth meyers fan i freaked out. so, we kept scooching down to get closer to him and we were calling out seth but in like a whisper kind of. so when the movie ended we got up and ran like hell and waited outside the theater sitting up against the wall pretending we were texting but we had our cameras ready. and when he came out, it was soooo not seth meyers. oh my gosh the guy didnt even look like him. im telling you lighting makes a huge difference. like, when i straighten my hair i turn my lamp off because it makes me look better. well elly slept over and it was pretty fun. but im kind of hungry now so i think im going to nom on some food.

Thanksgiving

so thanksgiving was fun. remember how i said i weighed 99.2? yeah well i thought for sure id be back to like 101.something. then this morning i weighed myself to be funny and i was 97.8. how did that happen?!?!? crazy. so yesterday consisted of Gracie on the phone, and me and Emily talking to him and each other. because gracies boyfriend (Renee) and we were trying to get him to tell us how he would propose to Gracie. i thought he would put the ring in a pokeball and then put a piece of paper that says i choose you. i thought that would be cute cuz hes kind of a nerd... but that's ok. the turkey yesterday was just amazing. as long with the stuffing. then, emelie slept over my house and we didn't go to sleep until 2:30 because we were watching bon qui qui and miss swan videos and lost track of time. i love bon qui qui "i will cut you." love it. as long with Angela Nicole Johnson. hilarious. i feel very refreshed today and I'm not sure why. i have to go to Leos to get a tan leotard for nutcracker. i also have to retrieve my diamond earrings from dance team because i need those for nutcracker. to much work. well, now my mom is making me and emelie eggs. delicious. I'm not sure why but I've been craving them since like this morning. my dog is staring me down. hes going to kill me in my sleep one day i swear....

Victors hand

Ok lets try this. yeah its not going to work im sorry.

IM FOREVER ALONE I SWEAR

ok, so this guy named victor in our math class. likes Lizzie. i mean really likes Lizzie. like he told Elly that he liked her and she told him how she likes Edin and how shes a bitch so he shouldn't waste his time. he got sooo mad that she liked Edin, he punched a wall. now here's my thing i must be really ugly or just forever alone because if guys are doing that over Lizzie there's obviously something wrong with me. unless guys are doing things like that about me and i just don't know it but i highly highly doubt that. oh here's his hand: ok so i tried to put the picture but its not letting me. so basically its his hand but his knuckles are all red. ill try again from my ipod. just wait. there's a good chance its not going to work but whatever.


 

honestly i dont know what to title this....

so angel is pretty much trying really hard. like on tuesday he text me and hes like "we havent hung out in a while" and im all "i know" and he goes " i keep looking for you but your gone. i miss you" and me feeling really bad goes "do you remember where my post is?" and he goes "at the top of the stairs right?" and i go "yes. meet me there tommorow" and so yeah. then on wednesday he was at my post and we were talking and he was like creeping the little kids out. you know,normal angel stuff. so then hes all "what are you doing for thanksgiving?" and i tell him blablabla and then im all "im wearing this reallyyyy cute straless dress but im going to wear a sweater because drunk people and strapless dresses dont mix real well" so then just now he sent me a text saying"happy thanksgiving! i hope you have a good time with your family and i hope you dont get raped in the strapless dress!!" and then we went on talking and he basically remembered every detail i told him. god, next year is going to be awkward as hell. especially if he stops liking me cuz then hell be all "I flirted so much..." and " i tried so hard..." so elly made a point tat once JP and hailey leave someones going to have to take their place. and shes all "two girls who are extremely pretty" then shes all "you and me. but well be much nicer and we wont be whores." so yeah i think its been established that were going to take their place but well be much nicer.

happy thanksgiving y'all (meant to be said in a southeren accent)

well, happy thanksgiving!!!! so i have very low self esteem. and today i weighed my self and learned i am 99.2 pounds!! but heres the thing, its the day that people eat like everything. and i know that 99.2 isnt that skinny but i used to weigh like more. kinda dont wanna say, for personal reasons. like it wasnt in the 200s but yeah. today should be fun...

Stop Looking at pictures of obama and do work

so Mrs Loy said that to charlie today in math class. like he had a binder with laminated pictures of Obama. pretty weird. so today in math i said "if i see victor today my four day weekend is going to go good" then guess whos adorable little face popped in? yup, joey. then, later on i saw victor in the hallway. so i seemed to notice that all the good moments or the hilarious moments happen in math. strange. so today i think Jessica plaud was trying to be my....friend. because she was all "you never told us why Monday was so good in math" (remember, victor coming in for the class yeah) and i was all "oh because the guy i like came in and he stayed for the whole class" and shes all "well who do you like?" and I'm all "a boy" and shes all "seventh?" and I'm all "yes." and she goes "is he in the main building. duh. "yes" and then Emily cuts in and shes all "well whats the first letter of his name?" and i go "v" and they're all "VICTOR ORTIZ." well, they figured it out. so I'm all "*smiles* yeah...*blushes*" and JP is all "awww i would just die if you guys started dating. you guys would look so cute together" and on the outside I'm all "yeah" but on the inside I'm all "bitch please tell me something i don't know. XD and i know Maria's probably thinking "we need to ask him out. she said shed die..." and then jp's all "you know what I'm going to do for you? I'm going to go up to him and be all you know that really cute girl Maegan...yeah you should ask her out" and I'm thinking this would be great....except he doesn't really....know me. i mean, i guess he knows my name from that incident at the door but i don't think he remembered. yeah, hes checked me out but that's basically it, it doesn't really mean anything. speaking of getting checked out some random dude was like staring me down at the mall then he checked me out. sometimes its hard controlling all this much smexii......

Well hello there

well this blog is very risky because Lizzie is right next to me. being very annoying as usual. yeah, I'm posting this from library. rebel. you know library isn't all that bad if your surrounded by people you actually wanna be by. oh shit teachers coming

To all my fellow 9gagers....

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    look, but don't tell......




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I'm gonna love you through it!!

does anybody else know that song? i believe its by Martina McBride. i hate this song. ok so its talking about how she needs to get rid of the cancer so she can help her kids with their lives right? so then she gets the surgery and they have to take out her whole boob cuz she had breast cancer. then it goes fake smiles and baggy shirts to hide what the cancer took from her. wtf Martina?!?!?! sure you have one boob but you can still be with your kids. hey, its better than being dead!!! i know i know your all "but Maegan, she just wants to feel like a woman" hey! at least your kids don't have to grow up with out a mom!!!! sheesh. so this has nothing to do with the song but Jackie's sister who is like ten drew me a picture (for the record I've only seen her twice and i didn't even talk to her that much)  and in big letters it says MAEGAN IS PRETTY AND AWESOME awh! isnt that cute? I'm pretty:]

Dont you just love it when your day goes great?

*sigh* school was absolutely amazing. it all started after service gym. so were walking out right? and i didn't even notice victor was going into his class but i did something with my hair that was super cute and he checked me out! ahh!!! i loved it. made me smile:] so then in math i was writing notes like a good student and Elly slammed her hand down on my notebook. i look up and who do i see? victor. "can i take my test in here?" yeah victor you sure can take your test in here... so then i start laughing and freaking out and I'm smiling like crazy. well, i didn't realize how bad i was freaking out because Omar was all "Maegan!" and I'm all "yes?" and hes all "do you like him?" and I'm all "shhh...." so then we share a laugh blablabla carry on with math. so then a couple minutes later i hear "Maegan!" and I'm all "what?" cuz i was in the math zone. and omars all "why dont you talk to him?" and I'm all "I'm shy...*blushes*" and hes all "aw. ok" so then victor finishes his test and gets up observes the room for a second, sees me, and checks me out yet again! totally made my day. and both Hailey and JP weren't here and i began to love my table. we had sooo much fun it was ridiculous. like, Chris isn't all that bad hes actually pretty nice and funny. and eryck, well eryck is just nice. guess what i learned today you guys? tomasz likes me!!! wow....isnt that exciting?!?!? you know, there are times when i feel bad for my self. Chris told me. and I'm all "its not one hundred percent written in stone though right?" and hes all "oh no yeah it is one hundred percent" this wouldn't be that bad if i didn't bump into him and he was totally all nice and lovey to me. well, this explains why hes been so nice. thought he was just a gentlemen.

finally, one thats recent.

yay!! this one is about this weekend!! <3
    so this weekend was fun. i guess. on Saturday, let me see what did we do on Saturday.....right! we went to the mall. i got some amazing jeans from wet seal. after the mall, we went to Walgreen's and got movies from redbox. we got gnomeo and Juliet and Arthur. Arthur made me wanna cry just a little bit. we also got chips. Mandy always gets chips. they're like her drugs. after Walgreen's we went to KFC. mmm delicious. honey barbecue wings and ten piece feast for this family. their biscuits are just...amazing. then while watching gnomeo and Juliet, Mandy promised she would not fall asleep. so then were watching the movie and I'm all "I'm going to go get some food" and shes all "ok" i leave for not even a minute and i come back and shes gone. out cold. fell asleep. way to keep your promise. then today was pretty busy. we went to lane techs open house. wow, i kinda wanna go there. but its almost impossible to get into. then we went to the McDonald's by the school but they were like crazy expensive so we left to go to sports authority and look at softballs for Mandy. and there just happened to be a McDonald's across the street. then i had to go to ballet. act rehearsals. ugh i had to be there from 6 to 8. terrible. and i only danced like twice. then we go to home and i had to be a test subject for Mandy's science fair project. then i had to do my homework. which was pretty weird. and now, well now I'm here at my house. freezing my little booty off.

late post #2

so, this ones about Friday.
      so on Friday, maria and i went to go bananas!! it was so much fun until we ALMOST GOT KIDNAPPED. as i said in an earlier post (ill walk with you i believe) kidnapping is my biggest fear. in the world. so this was pretty damn scary. ok, so me and maria are in the jungle gym thing and this little girl who was super cute was all " i know a secret hideout come with me" and so being nice me and maria went. and then we got down and the little girl insisted that maria give her a piggy back ride while maria was on all fours. so maria was all "oh we were going to go on the rollercoaster" thinking that the little girl would not want to go. smart right? wrong. the little girl was all "oh ill just go with you!" so then me and maria put our shoes on and Maria's all "wheres your mom?" and she points at this 20-30 year old guy and is all "that's hector i met him at McDonald's" scary already. so then the little girl( who never told us her name) needed help putting on her shoes and the guy was all "I'm hector by the way" and i go "I'm may" because there is no way I'm giving my name to some random ass guy. and then the guy is all "i don't think shell give it back. the heart she stole from you. she still hasn't given me mine" creepy.  and so i get up and leave.( btw maria i left to go alert Scott and my mother, we came back) and maria and the little girl and hector go on the roller coaster. and i wasn't there so i don't know exactly what happened but maria said he told her she was a gorgeous girl. yeah. so then Scott tells the general manager and that guy started stalking him like crazy. well, turns out the guy was a single father who comes there every other weekend. mmhh sure. but other than that it was pretty fun. there was this worker that looked EXACTLY like Dante. my godbrother. he talked like him he walked like him he acted like him. it was crazy. his name was Eric. we got sooo many tickets and prizes. and Eric was helping us with the prizes. he was sooo funny like he was hilarious and i think we even became somewhat friends. hope to see you again Eric.

Late post #1

so this is actually about Thursday...
     well, school was...interesting. like in math ms Loy was all "did anyone else do the problem like this?" and i raised my hand. i was the only one. and then ms Loy starts obsessing over me like I'm the smartest kid in the world. i like attention but not like that. and then with science. like, i was supposed to present my science fair and i didn't because all the eighth graders hadn't gone yet. but, Mrs flesor assigned us numbers last week so i don't even understand why i didn't go. i kinda wanted to go, just to get it over with you know? well, i guess ill have to present on Tuesday. and I'm not sure if this was on Thursday or not but I'm going to tell it anyways. so i was with Elly at her post and i don't recall what we were talking about but somewhere in the sentence i said "I'm Maegan" and Elly being the sweetheart she is was all "can you open the door?" so i did without thinking about it and who's there when i open the door? victor Ortiz. and right as i open the door I'm all "I'm Maegan" and hes all "well hello there" and me being me was all "hi:] *begins to blush*" yeah. so he knows my name now. sorry about the late post, pops doesn't have a computer.

Woah. Its a sign

So lat night i had the wierdest dream. It was me edin lizzie victor joey gonzalez and elly. See, elly likes joey i like victor and lizzie likes edin. So we were at this play but i was in it. But we went to see the Play before it. And it was like really really cold and lizzie was shivering like crazy and i guess her and edin were dating and edin was all "want me to put my arm around you" and she was all "um no i dont think were there yet" and edin looked somewhat sad. And joey and elly were dating and they werent paying attention to the fact that it was cold or the play, they were just making out. And i was dating victor. And we were doing our thing being all cute and flirting and things like that. So then i think edin went in for a kiss or something and lizzie was all "WHAT ARE YOU DOING?!?!" and he was all "you know what you are like the worst girlfriend in the world. Im done." and got up and walked away. Of course being an idiot even in my dreams was all "edin! Come back!" of course joey and elly didnt notice cuz they were making out and victor was being cute and was all ill stay with you forever. You know, stuff like that. *begins to blush*

Basically what im getting at is i think its like a sign. Like you know how all your dreams are related to reality? Yeah. Shed be a terrible girlfriend. Its just a fact. I dont think hes going to ask her out cuz he hasnt shown any "signs". But if he does, we all know whats going to happen…

experementation. im prettty sure thats spelled wrong

so i keep forget to blog about this so here goes. while at Elly's house i got really bored and we were outside so i decided to do a bit of testing. we stood at a crosswalk whenever cars came and we would see how many let us cross and how many didn't. seven cars let us cross and two did not. they were mean. well, technically eight cars let us cross but i didn't go cuz i swear they were going to try to kidnap me. they were very intimidating.

Tommorow

so tomorrow me and maria are going to go bananas. aka jeepers. come on, y'all know you know that place. so were going tomorrow and its going to be soo much fun. were probably going to ride the roller coaster like 50 times. were going to win so many prizes we'll be bawlin. sorry I've been hanging out with this black chick for the past hour. Mandy says she wants a temporary tattoo so i gotta get her that. so lately I've been noticing that dance has been kinda a let down. like me and my friends made mirliton which is on pointe and i thought that was pretty good for all of us. but noo their little show off asses had to go to the freaking pas De deux! that's like insane that's where people like Liz (the lead for mirliton) go. self confidence level: -12. i didnt think i was a bad dancer but now its like...i dont know. thats the thing i dont even know what to think of my dancing anymore. after every show its always "oh maegan you did so good blablabla" but no one every gives me feedback. thats one of the reasons why it kind of sucks being a dancer because nobody in my family knows about dance. well, that kind of dance anyways. so its like im practicing at home and for all i know i could be doing it wrong. and i wont know til i go back to class. everything was going great until stupid alex and sydney came along. what it toke me ten years to do, it took them two. not even two more like one and a half. i used to be mrs idas favorite. i used to be the person all the people wanted to talk to and hang out with. nooo you gotta be a good dancer for that kind of thing. sure, they still call me when they need someone to fill in a part for a show but still. i dont have the connections with the dancers. just the people that work there. sure, whenever nadias there doing make up for shows she always pulls me aside and does my make up all awesome like so i dont have to look like everyone else. but thats only because me and nadia are like this. *crosses fingers* but them, they talk to everyone like andrea and sonali and daisy and gulianna. me and gulianna used to go to the same school!! dance is a major confidence killer. and if my mom actually cared like she says she does she wouldve looked into the bryant youth professionals in a heartbeat. she still hasnt. because she doesnt think i can. she just doesnt have the heart to tell me. when shes all "oh, your a good dancer" its only because shes a mom and shes obliged to say things like that. imagine telling your kid that they suck at something. not very easy to do. i need serious help

our little competition

so me and Lizzie are having this "competition" but first let me tell you the back story.

STORY TIME!!!!
so one day me and Lizzie were talking and she was all "oh Maegan your so pretty i bet all the guys like you" and I'm like "hellz nah i bet no guy likes me. they probably all like you" you know because she gets everything she doesn't deserve. and shes all "no, they all like you blablabla" long story short, we got into a huge thing and now were having this competition

so basically the competition is too see who "has" more guys. like if more guys like her, i win. but if more guys like me, i win. so right now were tied. but shes just listing random guys. like, angel, ok. Brian, ok. but James?!?! I've never even talked to him!!! shes all "he only says hi to me when your around" maybe that's because we only see him when were together!!! I've never even talked to him. and one time we were at stoners spot and he was back there with some guys doing tricks on his bike and he rode over by us and did some sort of trick in front of us and shes all "notice how he did that right in front of you" dude!!! that's the spot where everyone does tricks!! idiot. oh but i think she might be winning because today at book fair i was looking at some books like a good student when this guy named joey came and hit my arm and i was all "oh hey joey" and hes all "hey you" and then he said something funny and i laughed and of course when you laugh you smile so then he was kinda staring at me all love struck like and then i was all "joey?" and hes all "oh sorry i wandered off" so then i gave him a hug and left to pay for my book. hes in my trap. MWUAHAHA!! but Maegan, what trap? MY CUTENESS TRAP. hellz yea. Ive got a cuteness trap. do you have one? no? well i do.

Slumber Partaaayyyy XD

I'll Walk With You

so today in science we had to present our science fair board. a lot of pretty funny things were said. like when michael went up i asked him if he enjoyed doing his project and hes all "yes very much" its funny cuz he has this really deep voice with like a polish/russian accent i dont know which one. and we had to say something positive and tomas being the wierdo he is was all "i like your voice" wtf?! ok.... so then krystian went and his board was kinda *cough* shitty*cough* and michael was all "how long did it take you to make that board?" it was funny cuz he sounded all confused. and then everytime krystian asked a question nobody could understand him cuz he has like four teeth behind his two front teeth. so brian lee, a eighth grader likes me. just cuz hes asian doesnt mean hes cute. he has no looks at all. but he realllyy likes me. like we had to play human knot in gym and i stuck my hands out and brian grabbed both of them. like first of all the game hasnt even started and your only suppod to grab the hands of the people across you. thank you very much. angel also likes me a lot too. cuz elly left and then likes five minutes later scott called saying to go to ellys house and im like fuck im going to have to walk alone and angels like "oh i walk that way so you can just walk with me" and im all "ok" so were walking and we take the short way but this random ass van pulls up and parks and im all "ohshitohshitohshit kidnap van" now, i have the biggest fear of being kidnapped. so hes all "oh here" and puts me on the other side away from the van. and im all "thanks :]" and hes all "here for extra safety" and puts his arm around me. yeah. so then thats over and he puts his arm down. then im walking streetside and he moves me and hes all "you shouldnt walk close to the street" all gentlemen like. by then ellys walking toward us but i yell for her to just stay at her house cuz we were like there basically and so we keep walking and we get to ellys house and angel and i say bye i give him a hug, blablabla.angel crosses the street and i walk into ellys house. so then im looking out the window and i see angel turn around and start walking back the direction we came. isnt that cute? he doesnt go that way at all! im really starting to feel bad for the poor kid, i mean its never going to happen. but, at least hes trying.

im surrounded by cute people!!

today, i walked into the mobiles and maria was all "hey sexy :]" awh! i love that. and uriel!! i love uriel! hes such a cutie. like he was with his fifth grader friend and they had to go somewhere but uriel stopped to give me a hug and his friend is all "no hugging girls" and uriels like "always hug girls" thought that was cute. and he has this really cool hat and i was all "uriel, can i steal your hat?" and hes all "umm how about tommorow cuz today is kind of cold but i dont care about tommorow" awh. oh! and my dad. hes so cute. cuz i wrote down some notes on a piece of paper and it fell out of my assignment notebook at my dads house and hes all "oooo one of your love letters....let me read it." and im all "its not a love letter....its notes....cuz im a nerd" and hes all "ok, ok so where do you hide the love letters?" and im all "i dont get any love letters" and hes all "LIES! i know you get them, i know what goes on with that" and im all "with what?" and hes all "the boys. i know what goes on with them" *facepalm* oh papa, you so silly.

The Ugly Truth

your a bitch. you present yourself to everyone as little miss goody goody but to everyone who knows the real you your a whiny bossy stupid conceded bitch. i hate you with a passion. i hate your mom and your dad. god, all the times Ive wanted to stab your mom for celebrating you for something you did terrible at. everybody hates you. yes,everybody . you think everyone adores you, but when your gone, you're the most hated person on the planet. your a terrible dancer. i hate the way you dance. your dancing makes me feel like Kent Julie.(famous ballet dancer). your mom thinks your the most talented, gifted person in the world but what shes trying to get you to achieve I've already accomplished. I've already got my pointe shoes and have danced. I've already got a solo/ lead. I've already had the opportunity to be on TV but because I'm so passionate about my dance i couldn't. Ive already accomplished school goals. your sad that we"ll never see each other after next year, but the rest of us are jumping for joy hoping to never see you again. just admit it. sometimes, people are going to do better than you. not everyone is going to like you, and at the rate your at, your not going very far. you would be the worst girlfriend on the planet. oh, thanks for calling me a slut, whore. i saw that attempt to be sexy and body roll upwards sticking your ass out in the open. i saw that. i saw you try to seduce Edin but really no one gives a shit. i hate how you think you can do whatever the hell you want, but you cant do anything. i love seeing you get yelled at. seeing your little miss goody goody act all go down the drain only for your stupid parents to be blinded by your fakeness and believe you all again. think about all the rude things you've done when we were playing around but your such an idiot, you took seriously. (although we did too) all the times i said i was joking when i said something mean i obviously want joking. i hate you Lizzie garrity. just cuz two guys like you, you think your life is terrible. I WOULD BE THRILLED IF VICTOR ORTIZ LIKED ME. you know i have a crush on him yet you keep bringing up he likes you. when me and maria walk away from you, we obviously don't want to be by you so don't run after us. nobody likes the way you butt into other peoples conversations when your obviously not a part of it. about the whole paranormal activity thing, it was for ME AND MARIA. i don't have to do everything with you, ok?!?! idiot. i hate you with a passion and it probably wont change.
                                                                         Maegan.
p.s i hope you step on a lego. (you KNOW that shit hurts)

Why the hell do I still think about him?

Ok, so I used to date this guy named jovanni. Geo for short. It was probably the best relationship I've ever been in. He was sweet, funny, caring all that good stuff. So one day he dumped me. Omg I was crying so hard. Then about three hours later he texted me saying "you know what, do you want to get back together?!?" and me being a caught up in the moment that he actually wanted me back I said yes. Well, that lasted for like two days. See, geo moved out of our school so we were only dating til one of us got asked out or started liking someone else. So then he told me that he started liking this chick named lina. So he dumped me. For real. I don't think I've ever cried so hard in my life. So I thought he was going to that Lina chick but no. He went to my BEST FRIEND he asked her out and she said yes. Well obviously I still liked him an he knew it. So every little cute thing he or she did, he told me about it. Why? I have no idea. So then my friend (Melanie) broke down and dumped him. Me being a good person asked if he was ok and he thought I was being a smart ass so he was "getting revenge" by telling me all about Lina and this other chick Emily. Yeah, total douche. But here's my problem I can't stop thinking about him. At all. Like I miss him but I don't miss him. We don't even talk just to have a conversation. I'm always thinking about him when I know I shouldn't. I miss him I guess. Not a lot but to the point where I'm constantly thinking about him. I need help. I should go to a therapist or something. But do t they tell the parents what you tell them? Hm I couldnt do that. I don't know why the hell I think about hom. I think it's cuz he was so sweet and did all these cute things that I kind I long for it I guess. I still have the voice message he sent saying I love you, I still have the pictures of him he sent me. I still miss him.

love is in the air....so someone needs to start polluting

so today me and Lizzie got into a huge fight. then she goes "i think were becoming like them(Sam and maria)" and i go "good i want to be a bit more like maria" and she goes "i wanna be a bit more like Sam" and i go "i wanna be more like Sam and maria." and she goes i wanna be a bit more like "Sam, maria and Jessie." so then i go "i wanna be a bit more like Sam, maria, Jessie, Mrs arnowitz, Mrs Schmidt and......your mom" and Sam and maria are all "dayyyuummm". and that's how i won that argument. omfg Lizzie thinks her life is just so fucking terrible. all because two guys like her. one of them just so happens to be the guy i like. yeah, THAT'S HOW LONELY AND UNLOVABLE I AM.  even the guy i like likes Lizzie. i think from now on I'm just going to like avoid her. or type exactly how i feel about her and put it in her locker on the last day of eighth grade. i really hope Edin doesn't ask her out. OH SHIT MY STRAIGHTENER I FORGOT IT WAS ON. there all better :] ooo Edin really likes Lizzie. or at least I'm starting to believe he does. cuz we  were in line for math and we were talking and edin comes up out of nowhere and is all "mmhh what are you talking about?" and thats really all the evidence i have but still. you know what i just realized? almost no attractive guys like me. except for uriel, but hes short and younger than me and hes just a cutie. so, mikey likes elly and mikeys okkk i guess and victor likes lizzie. mmmm victor... and edin likes lizzie and edins not that bad looking. and i think omar likes elly and omar isnt that bad at all. but what do i have? angel whos not attractive. to me at least. and bryan. bryan doesnt have any looks whatsoever. like theres always that guy with the horrible face but the amazing hair. yeah, hes not even that. but he likes me. CAN SOMEBODY PLEASE HELP ME. somebody, anybody, please tell me that some guy likes me or something.  like i know i dont need a boyfriend but having someone like that and you can be all cute too is super nice. OMFG so the wierdest thing happened, so once again angel ditched economy club to be with me and ms mccright saw us walking and was all "ARE YOU DATING HIM?!" and im all "no" and shes all "GOOD YOU BETTER NOT BE" O_o yeah, definately one of the more strange moments in life. god, i wish i had a boyfriend. like, itd be nice. somebody please help me!! well its now written in stone that angel likes me. because even JP pointed it out. she was all "ok. i think angel likes you" and im all "he does" and shes all "do you like him?" and im all "just as a friend" and shes all "good" so yeah, im going to go cry my eyes out ;] good bye! woah, not sure why i ended it with goodbye. that was strange.

i dont want you to get hurt

so we switched seats in class. I'm like right across from my old seats. so ms. mccright put all the eighth graders in their spots and then she had the eighth graders pick the seventh graders they wanted at their table. well, some. some she assigned spots. so i was like one of the last....8? i wanna say. and JP and maria are sitting next to each other and ms mccright are all "Jessica and Maria, pick your seventh graders" so they get all close and start whispering and JP says "Emily and Maegan" and I'm all "whaaattt?" super confused. so then we sat down and JP tells Emily "when she said seventh graders i immediately thought you" then she looks at me "and you cuz your cute" AGAIN WITH THE CUTENESS. I'm flattered. so then she goes "Lizzie drives me insane" and I'm all "omg me too!!" and she goes "she was looking at me telling me to pick her and in my head I'm all noooo" made me laugh. then Chris is being a total stupid head and starts arguing with her or something and JP goes "i don't just defend my self but i defend her(points to maria), her(points to Emily), and her(points to me). so if you start a problem with them , you'll be hearing from me, cuz I'm not afraid to punch you in the face" and I'm thinking me?! we've never really talked before and you want to defend me all because i sit at your table all of a sudden?!? ok. angel really likes me. like, I'm starting to feel a bit bad for the kid. like. i don't wanna date him. but hes trying soo hard. like today i hear "Maegan!!" i look its angel. i walk over to him and he goes "we're going to play football and i want you to watch" and I'm all "ok:]" but on the inside I'm all "angel why are you doing this to yourself." then i was leaving and he was running to get the ball during his game and me being the good person i am goes "bye angel I'm leaving" and i left a piece of paper that said bye on it in his book bag. and he LITERALLY pauses the game to run to me and give me a long hug. the guys were yelling at him but its like he couldn't hear them. (blinded and deaf by my cuteness, probably haha) so then like a couple minutes ago we were texting and i go "did you get my note?" and he goes "oh yeah i found it" and me being cute goes "did it make you smile?" and he goes "actually it did:]" i just don't want this crush to go far and then him realize its probably never going to happen. i don't want him to get hurt. i hope it doesn't get to that point.

awh maria!!!!

so maria texted me. she realllyyy likes my blog and she was all when i read your blog....i made one. its magical. and im all awh!!! i inspired someone to make a blog. she better follow me. then ill follow her!! i feel so amazing, im inspiring to people <3 shes so cute, i swear.

welcome back to hell

so this weekend was surprisingly fun. i think its cuz dern (my brother) was here. then again we did go to Pepes house (my godfather) i swear whenever we go there its so much fun. the night usually consists of stories, Pepe showing pictures of his most recent trip since his job causes him to travel a lot, food, and rock band. oh, rock band. what great memories you have brought my family and i. all the crazy dance moves you've encouraged my dad and Pepe to do. all the almost impossible songs you've dared us to try and succeed. all the times weve played until one in the morning without even realizing it. yes, weve had some good times with you, rock band. so on friday dern and mandy picked me up from lizzies house and we stopped at this store so brother could buy this really nice knife for his collection. then we had to pick up pops from fresco and dern got lost on the way there and the gps on his phone just took him in one big circle. then on saturday we played nintendo 64 (yeah, we own that). i learned how to play pokemon. and we also went to the mall and i bought some shirts from wet seal. when i tried them on at the house they were very tight fitting and the straps on one of the tank tops broke. so then today we went back to the mall, returned them and got store credit. hellz yeah. then we went to hot topic and i bought ramune!! ramune is like the best japanese drink in the whole world. its basicallly carbonated soda but the way you open it is so cool. its pretty weird to explain so you should google it. mandys new nickname for me is ramune. thought that was cute. then at the house i was working on homework and our cousins (?) came over and they were soo distracting. they werent annoying at all just distracting. and we also had mc donalds because mandy had been begging  for like a week. my aunt is in from....texas? i think. shes so cute. and my other aunt was staying over. so it was my grandpa and two aunts. brothers and sisters. theyre so cute, cuz theyre all old so they were like comparing medications and all. adorable. so i have this amazing weekend right? then i come home to my stupid ass stepdad and my loving mother. this house is no fun at all. its homework, dance, homework, eat, sleep. ok so i like never watch tv like ever. and they want to get my a bigger tv so i can game on it. seriously? i only watch tv when i go to sleep or on the weekends. and even on the weekends its just a little bit cuz were always doing something and i have to do homework and i have dance on sundays. im so excited cuz we have one more practice then we do full acts practices and then two dress rehersels and then the show!!! im so excited, its my first year on pointe. super thrilled. but yeah. i come back here where i always argue with my stepdad and its basically a mini hell. for me at least. hence the title. well we have to wait and see. i have a dermatoligist appointment tommorow. theyre going to burn my face. right after they numb it. with shots. yeah. : / pretty scary. tommorows also parent watching week for pointe. i hope pops can make it. maybe even dern. we'll just have to wait and see.

Somebody help me escape , please

So I'm not trying to run away or anything im just bored. I'm at the library with Lizzie. I'm actually posting this from mrs Garritys iPad. Well it's official, angel likes me. So last year when geo liked me, Edin and Uriel kept making fun of him. Well today they made fun of angel. Like Maria Sam and I were pulling a prank on Lizzie and I thought " well angels good at pranks so I'll get him" and then we were walking back and Edin came running and put his arms around me and angel, pushed us close together and said "couples!!" and then Uriel was all "such a romantic evening" god I swear. I love haning out with angel but if this shit Is going to be happening, I dont wanna. I like angel as a friend and only as a friend and I don't want him getting hurt. I mean his crush probably isn't that serious, but you know… HOLY SHIT!!!! Edin's going to ask out Lizzie!!!! Or at least thad what he told Jessie and Jessie told Lizzie. I really don't want them dating. She's going to be a terrible girlfriend. I told her that. I didn't say terrible, I just said bad. So she basically called me a slut. She was all " just because ive had no boyfriends and you've had 6 or how many guys you've dated just for fun, doesnt mean I'm going to be a bad girlfriend" I was literally going to explode. I was going to tell her everything. How I feel about about her. Then she told me she didn't know if she wanted to date him or not. I told her not to. She's going to get hurt by him. I just know it. But if she wants to go date him go head cuz frankly, I dint give a shit anymore. I'm just going to avoid her. Shell be with Edin all the time she won't even care. God,this just goes to show how fukin lonely I am. Even LIZZIES getting guys. I swear I'm going to be forever alone. Help me mandy. Please. Tell me,I'm going to find someone. That I'm not going to be alone forever. Tell me I'm going to find someone and it's going to last.

Please help me.

lesbian love (but not really)

so, angel likes me. Mandy thinks he looks like a lesbian thus explaining the title. its like sooo obvious omfg. like yesterday melanie came cuz it was her birthday and i ran to her and i jumped and she caught me and started spinning. and angel was there and i was all "see you cant do that" and hes all i think i can pick you up so then he put his arms in a small circle in front of him and hes all "your about this big right" and im all ummm i guess and hes all come here let me lift you and he lifted me and when he put me back down hes all "omg your so small" and then the other day he was supposd to go to enviromental club. but if he did i would be all by myself and so he decided to skip and stay with me. then he got yelled at by ms mccright and he had to go and he gave me like the longest hug in the world and hes all i wanna stay with you im sorry bla bla bla. its pretty cute.

supercutie!

so today we took pictures for marshals and i was of course wearing this shirt i recently got. I'm doing this project with Edin anushka and Robert. so i went to anushkas desk to ask her something and Hailey was all oh Maegan i like your shirt. and I'm all thank you i like your outfit. and shes all "YOUR SO CUTE OMG" and I'm all whaaatttt? so confused. so then i walk away and i hear her talking to JP and shes all "shes so cute i just wanna squeeze her and give her a big hug" so then at the actual picture taking event shes walking and I'm in her general direction and shes all "your just so cute can i have a hug?" and I'm all sure yeah. so then i hugged her and Edin was right next to me and hes all "what the hell just happened that was weird" and I'm all "yeah, but I'm cute so it doesn't mater: )" yeah, defiantly one of the more awkward moments in life.

so rebel

so the other day in library i logged onto my blog and i was talking about how i was posting from school and how im so rebel. then my librarian came and i got scared and exited out. haha yeah thats how rebel i am. maria was laughing at me. it was understandable though.

paaarrrrtttttaaaaayyyyy

lizzies party was this weekend. omfg it was so much fun. so first we watched insidious. scary as hell. so the little tiniest things scared me really bad but the two huge scenes that were supposed to be the really scary part didnt scare me whatsoever. i know, doesnt make sense. then we watched the room mate while eating pizza. it wasnt scary but more creepy. like the evil girl pulls out this girls belly ring when shes in the shower. then we watched scream 4. during the whole movies i swear ghostface was standing behind me waiting for the right moment to stick a knife through me. after all that the party really started. to be honest i dont even remember what we did really. all i remember is we started watching that so raven and the episode with the boys with motion came on and we all started dancing. then jessie was all "come here maegan and juke!!" so i juked on jessie. and then we started watching rudolph then we got bored so we started watching cat in the hat but it was scratched so we started watching nightmare before christmas but no one was really paying attention to it. then about eh 6 in the morning we started watching strawberry shortcake. then about 7 i went to sleep and around 8 maria and elly went to sleep. so it was really fun. then today im going trick or treating. i went yesterday in the suburbs and i got a can of soda. and an apple. excited for today.

The dance *sighs*

so yesterday was the dance. it was soo fun but you know, it had its downs. so the music gets all slow and i hear "ok girls find a boy or girls find a girl" and im thinking "shit, slow dance" so elly grabs me right leaving lizzie with no partner and so this guy named victor ortiz (mmhhh hes pretty cute i must say i dont like him though) grabs lizzie and they start dancing. so obviously me and elly start laughing and then the music stops and mrs arnowitz is all "switch partners!" and so everyones running and jessie grabs me and her and i start dancing and lizzie and elly start dancing. so that was all good then we had to switch again and i go with lizzie and elly had no partner and so victor showed up again and he and elly start dancing. so then the slow dancing stops and i get all excited thinking im going to get to dance with at least one guy right? but i thought that was the last slow dance, but then a couple minutes later mrs arnowitz is all "someone requested another slow dance" so i go with elly and lizzie knew  i wanted to dance with a guy. so im with elly and lizzies with jessie. then we switch and i go with natalia and elly goes with lizzie. and then we switch again and lizzie goes with victor again knowing i wanted to dance with a guy and instead of her being super awesome she just kept dancing with him instead of oh, i dont know....handing him to me!! so then hes looking at me while im with elly and hes giving me the look like " im going to dance with you next" but the stupid song ended. but heres the thing!! aha! i was going to dance with edin and we did for like 2 seconds and hes like what time is it? and im all 5:30 and hes all "shit i gotta go im sorry" so then he leaves but the people wouldnt let him walk home by himself so he calls his mom and she said shed be there in like 10 minutes and so he runs back in saying "i can dance!" and the song ended. that was the last slow dance.  i was also going to dance with joey but karinas all "no i wanna dance with him!" and im all ok, chill out. so victor kept hanging with edin all night and edin kept hanging with me all night. now, idk if they planned that or not. so im in the middle of elly and jessie and then all of a sudden victor comes in front of me and starts juking on me. it was hilarious. then after the dance ended elly said i should date edin and haileys all "omg thatd be soo cute!" and JPs all i think you should date victor ortiz. and i was all hmmm,,, ;] and then haileys all " i always thought you would look cute with juan" and JPs all "EW!". it was funny. so i called up bryanna and she said shes 90% sure theres going to be atleast ONE slow dance at the dance cuz they did one last time. so maybe ill get my chance tommorow. we'll just have to wait and see. oh, and by the way i text edin asking if he seriously had to go or if he just didnt want to dance with me cuz lizzie was being a bee otch and was all "maybe he just didnt wanna dance with you" so i asked and hes all no no no i seriously had to go then he went in to this loonngg explaination and i was all oh ok :] and hes all no i seriously had to go lizzie was wrong. thought that was cute. so then i ended up not going to the dance in the suburbs and he texted me (he text me first) saying "how was the dance?" (thought that was sooo cute) and i told him i didnt go then im all "im never going to slow dance with a guy" and hes all "Aww i wouldve but i had to go" true story. i swear to god im not lying.

Halloween dances and costumes

So today i got the finishing touches on my halloween costumes. Me and mother went to payless and got these super cute boots. They are like ankle high and have a bit of a heel. I absolutely love them. Then we went to party city and i got these sunglasses and kittu ears. Id have to say my costume looks pretty good. So tommorow is the dance and also the field trip. Angels so cute he text me and hes all if we get to pick partners me and you should be partners. And on friday instead of going to see the movie im going to the dance out in the suburbs. Im going to see people like jason and mikaela and everyone. I dont know if i should wear the boots to the dance tommorow because i have shorts and tights and JP wont be afraid to tell me i look slutty. It doesnt look slutty and i added a sweater so it shouldnt be bad. Ill ask elly when i change at her house tommorow. I will definately wear them when i see jason;) i talked to him on the phone the other day. It was very interesting.

Paranormal Activity 3

so you know how that movie came out already? yeah well Maria, Sam, and I are going to see it on friday since we have no school. we're going to watch it in the middle of the day, when its nice and bright out. so i was asking maria if she wanted to come in the bathroom today and lizzie (ugh) was eavesdroping in on our conversation and was all "your terrible (shes been saying that a lot), you didnt even invite me" and im all wtf?!?! i dont have to do everything with you, ok? ok. and then she goes up to elly and is all "did you get invited to this?" and ellys all "i dont like scary movies so i dont really care, your making a big deal out of nothing. not everything needs to be done with you" go elly!! and lizzies all "you know what, your terrible" and walks out. then in the class, she acts like nothing even happened. god i swear. im so happy i didnt tell her i have this blog. so excited for friday.

the cheese stands alone

so for all of you people who go on websites like 9gag and membase (<3 both of them) you probably know forever alone guy. i swear, hes based off of me. im never going to find anyone.some times i question my existence. you think they wouldve stopped at mandy right? i shouldnt be here and im never going to find anyone. i should just start buying cats right now, cuz thats where im heading. highschools going to be even worse. sure im going to date someone but is it going to last? no, probably not. AHHH this is terrible i hate feeling like this. i dont want to feel like this, but i do.

that cotton candy looks stolen

so this weekend was fun. i guess. it was kind of like any other weekend with pops. we saw gina. went to her house watched a movie. stood there until twelve i think. shes pretty nice. her daughters doing ballet, i thought that was cute. wonder what level shes in.. hm ill have to ask. so you know how sometimes in your mind you think everythings going to be perfect and work out fine, then you actually get there and its not at all like you thought it would be? yeah, thats going to be me with high school. we went to northside preps open house today. i used to do hip hop shows there. its pretty nice, no uniforms, lots of asians though. kinda wanted some mexicans. i mean dont get me wrong asians are super hot too but i feel like high school for me isnt high school if i dont share it with people of my own race, ya know? i mean an asian would be fine to date but im kinda dark and hes kinda light. whatever. so i was texting edin and i told him about northside and how i wanna go to lane and he said "you have to go to lane cuz thats where i wanna go" i thought that was cute. angel said the same thing and uriel. but then again, uriels liked me since the middle of last year. rumors are going around that angel likes me. that isnt true. we hang out after school and thats the only time people see us. maybe he does like me, idk. thatd be cute.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BROTHER!!

So today is brothers birthday. hes how old? 20? yeah hes 20. ew, hes so old. love that guy. happy birthday brother, te amo <3

whats burning?

so i'm at pops house and we (mandy pops and i) just got here. so as always mandy goes to make some ramen right? and while she was taking the styropome thing off the little part of soup that they give you shes all "whats burning?" and she looks down and her bracelet is burning.so she drops the soup and puts her bracelet under the faucet. its not like the thing burst into flames but it was like burning where it was all red. you know like after you set out a fire the logs or whatever are still kind of red? yeah like that. it was pretty funny. mandys putting on oragel, can't wait til she starts drooling. lol.