Take me to your best friends house, normally were making out. ohh yeah

i love that song. its called tongue tied by grouplove. you may know it as that song from the iPhone commercial "take me to your best friends house, i love you then i love you now ohh yeahh" today was pretty weird. idk why there was nothing strange about it really it just felt weird. i thought it was Monday. so Mandy called me at four in the morning. i answered it because i thought it was something important but then i remembered its Mandy soo yeah. well we were talking and Scott comes in all crazy and yelling bla bla bla. then i go downstairs and my mom starts yelling and whatever. like, ok if I'm going to lose sleep because of something i  decided to do, then just let it be that way. if i make a mistake and my whole day is ruined that's fine because i decided to do it. all i really want is some god damn independence. like, my life is being lived for me and its so....generic. don't do this don't do that don't do this because its weird. ok, its weird in your eyes because your so stupid but in my eyes its different. something i really want. if my parent and Scott let me be the real me for at least one day, they wouldn't even know who i am. they think i know nothing. i know wayyy more than I'm supposed to (about the dirty things) they think i don't swear or that i know what they're talking about when they have "adult" conversations. they have those conversations right in front of me like I'm stupid and cant comprehend what they're saying. i just want to explode. you know how people scream into pillows to let anger out? normal thing. well i told my mom i wanted to scream into a pillow and shes like "that's not normal Maegan" wtf?!?! people scream into pillows all the time. i just want to tell her everything. i just want to run away. i just want to live with my dad. he gets me. he let Mandy date with no big deal ( at least not that big i don't think) so it wouldn't be much of a hassle when i start dating (and actually telling them. please, Ive dated before.) he said he'd let me get a lip ring when I'm 16.i cant even tell my mom i want one without the fear of her thinking I'm insane...

            well, now that that's out, back to reality. omg it was so funny because lizzie tottaly interrupted the discussion during school and ms mccright was all "lizzie, your not that important." and on accident i yelled out "thank you!" haha oops :D so Elly had to ask ms mccright about some counseling stuff and she came to me and shes like "oh yeah, i may have told ms mccright you cut yourself." i freaked out. nobody was supposed to know about that except the people i told. my mom had a long discussion with me about why that's wrong and blablabla and i was thinking "heh, too late for that now..." but Elly was just kidding. I think. I hope.