And now I'm drunk and wearing flip flops on fifth avenue

love that line. i don't know why though. its from poses by rufus wainwright slept over at emelies last night. it was pretty fun. so, the more i think about it, the less i like victor, and the more i think about dating him, the more it scares me. see,victor seems like he'd be a good bad boyfriend. like, he's really cute and sweet, and says all the nicest things, but he's perverted and he'd hurt me when he would dump me. now don't get me wrong he's is till pretty damn attractive,but....i don't know. and with nico, it just seems like he wouldn't be perverted. like, he'd be really sweet and nice and stuff. and when he would break up with me it would be as nice as possible. let me down easy. don't you love how I'm figuring out the break ups too? because i know they're going to dump me. its just a well known fact. scientifically proven. by me. i went to the mall today, which was a huge spirit lifter because while in hot topic there was this really cute guy. he looked about eh, 13ish. and he was stalking me around the store! love it. like, he was literally following me. i went to look at the sunglasses, he went to look at the sunglasses, i went to the shirts, he went to the shirts, i went to pay, oh look, there he is by the cash register. he was just so attractive. and then we went into claires and there was these two guys and they were buying stuff for their girlfriends. thought it was so cute. they were looking at necklaces and one of them asked the other "do you think she'll like it?" love it. i seriously wanted to go up to him and give him a hug and be all "yes, she'll love it:D" but that would be extremely creepy. tomorrow i'm going with elly to her tumbling practice because my mom has to work and scott is working on his car. then, when my mom gets off of work, I'm going ice skating with camryn tommorow. but i think nico is coming. which should be interesting. I'm sorta excited to meet him but then again, I'm nervous. he's supposed to be like really tall like five four. which is like crazy for me because I'm a tiny four nine. BUT THEN AGIN IM CUTE AS HELL SO IT DOESNT MATTER. haha:D love you, whoever you are.